Squeakers
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There was a time and sometimes I still visit that time where I will ask 'why I must suffer difficult walks' especially those walks that were not of my own making. I grieve at times for my difficult walks and truly wonder how my path could have been different was I not forced to endure the difficult walks. There are times, I get angry, there are times I cry, there are times, I share it and times that I keep it hidden. The times I do share my own difficult walk, I am never asking for empathy, never looking for a Squeakers I am sorry, I share because I simply wish to share that part of me. quote:
So... what have difficult walks done for you? My own difficult walk shaped my entire life. It forced to make mistakes, make wrong choices, say things in anger, question my exsistance, but it also brought me to where I am now. I am a content person most of the time, I am able to handle little stresses in my life with a fair amount of ease, I have a bit more tolerance and understanding to those who are of different mind than myself, I have strength to get through difficult times because nothing can be more difficult than my past. I can remind myself I am not perfect, I can laugh at myself and smile when others laugh at me or with me, I am able to see that I am different and although I am proud of my differences, I can blend in if I need to because sometimes, I am not so very different after all. My difficult walk has taught me about me, my place in the world, and the impact I desire to leave behind. It has caused me to reflect and ponder, not only myself but the actions of others. Sometimes, I question the actions of another and wonder why those actions came about and ponder where they are coming from but as I grow older and learn more about me, I become less judgemental about the actions of others. I wonder what burden they may carry and if their actions might simply be a reflection of that. I embrace my difficult walk, it is part of me, it makes me, me and most of the time, I am my own best friend.
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