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I'm Pissed - 3/28/2007 8:21:47 PM

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Ok, i have to vent. i will likely explode or do something stupid. I'm not calling up anyone and venting there because eventually i know i'll get over it and i dont want to damage anything. My stupid as cunt of a sister, after a conversation about what happened New Years with my brother said "i'm suprised you havent been hurt worse" So i was like, um i have.. i've had half my face swelled up and given two black eyes. Her response? "i'm not suprised" WTF is that? Is she that fucking stupid, that fucking dumb? Ah i lost a fuse. i told her to stfu and go away. And i was sitting here practically trembling with rage and i managed to IM her again and let her know that i was hit that hard, because i accidently swerved while driving.. and the guy i was driving with.. didnt like it so.. he tried to knock my lights out while i was driving. Yeah.. REAL called for. Thats right! i deserved for my brother to shove me into a wall, knock me off my feet and end up with with a knot on my head! No... the fact that i walked away.. was half way down the ship at the time doesnt count. i FUCKING WALKED away. And he fucking chased me. So whats the proper response? Curl up into a ball and beg not to be hurt? i've DONE that. All that does is A) still get you hurt and B) make you feel like shit about yourself. I might be fucking wacked, but i'd rather stand my ground and deal with whatever is coming my way then not see it coming. Hell if i can see it coming, i can hopefully minimize the damage.

i hope she rots in hell. Nah, what i hope is that one day somebody beats the shit out of her so she can wake up and smell the coffee. Its called being responsible for your ACTIONS. If you fucking lay hands on me.. its NOT my responsiblity. I should not have the power to "make" you do a damn thing.

But Nooooooooooo unfortunetly for HER - i stood my ground with our father - so SHE didnt get hit, so she didnt get beat. Should of let the ungratiful little cunt get the shit beat out of her when she was a kid. Put myself in the lne of fire for HER. Ignorant little bitch.

Aye and she's fucking lucky i wasnt standing there with her. Cos i'd of knocked her fucking block off. Looked at her and smile and said "yup yup - you deserved that" Give her a NEW perspective.

Why do i give these people second and third chances? WTF is wrong with me? So what, they grow up, they change, they mature.. they're STILL the same fucking people. Fucked up, ignorant ppl who cant be real for a second of their life. If they were just "people" i'd of been done with them when i was younger. But nooooooooooo they're blood.. and god sakes why cant i help but love them? They dont deserve it. They never have.

Ignorant little bitch. I hope she fails the semester, her boyfriend cheats on her and leaves her, my father cuts off her funds and she's left standing on her own whining about how miserable she is. God help her if she cant get her shit straightend out and everyone ends up treating her like shit because of it. When that day comes, i'm more of a vicious bitch then she realises and i'll rip her damn guts out. Yup yup, i'll find her at her lowest point and twist some more.

GAH and its not like i havent been rooting for her! She's not been doing well, she's fucking up, the men in my family are giving her shit.. and i've been trying to help. Talking to my father, my brother, telling them to be understanding.. trying to HELP her. Being there for her miserable little ass. The night started off with her whining about her boyfriend. I listened, i gave advice, i understood, i let her whine.. i was loving.. supportive.. all those fucking things....... and what?

Fuck her. Fuck her to hell. Spoiled ass little princess. And Newp - i dont plan on talking to her again. If some one is going to hurt me, i am not going to be a dumb ass to put myself in a position to be hurt again. She'll be lucky if i speak to her with in 5 years and i know better then to be in the same room with her. I'd like to knock her teeth down her throat. Oh yeah, and i'd take complete responsiblity for knocking her teeth down her throat.

But of course - if she realises the error of her ways, apologizes i might forgive her. Because, unfortunetly, i am a forgiving bitch. I would be alot better off if the majority of my family members fell over and died.

Luckily for me - none of them play a major role in my life. So i can content myself with ignoring the shit out of them for as long as i please. Rot in HELL.

How ....... could....... she? Now, i knew she was slightly moronic and i understood alot of her issues and her perspective.. but this shit blows me away. i'm STILL angry. And even knowing that she's an ignorant little bitch doesnt make me feel any better. But atleast i'm not trembling with anger and seeing red now = ) I'm calming down to where i'd almost like to go back and start ripping into her. Gah it would be so easy. So easy to climb into her head....
But - there are other ways to calm myself. Like posting here and then going and watching Saw 3.

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RE: I'm Pissed - 3/28/2007 8:30:40 PM

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Good thoughts for you. Siblings can be land mines. Cookie?

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RE: I'm Pissed - 3/28/2007 8:31:44 PM

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first you may not want to wish bad things on others regardless how mugch they deverve it because all to often it only comes back to bite you in the ass anyway...

So have you tried klicking him in the balls?

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RE: I'm Pissed - 3/28/2007 8:42:47 PM

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It is not easy when you hate someone you love is it? I know. I’m not sure if I got everything but if your father and your brother have been physically abusing you then your are absolutely right to keep your distance from them. No one should have to put up with that. Make it clear to them that if they want any kind of relationship with you that the abuse ends – immediately and one hundred percent – otherwise they are persona-non-grata to you.

You also have every right to be angry but do be careful about giving into hatred – it has a way of poisoning the soul. That is something I also know. It is not easy to give up hate but it is easier if you focus on the fact that it is ultimately for your – and not the object of your hatred’s – peace of mind.

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RE: I'm Pissed - 3/28/2007 8:46:24 PM

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Hugs, hugs and more hugs, I hate to see you get this pissed off,
in your delicate condition.
I know those hormones are raging, but please put your feet up,
get some water or juice, a healthy snack and enjoy a movie!!
Deep breaths, deep breaths, deep breaths............
I hope you feel better soon.

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RE: I'm Pissed - 3/28/2007 9:12:27 PM

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Protecting your sibling is noble, but ultimately may be non-productive and even counterproductive.

When I had died and was hurt, I saw my mother as the enemy and every time that she corrected one of my siblings I came to the rescue and took the verbal and emotional punches and was hurt even more. The result was that my younger siblings never learned to behave and I had to keep coming to their rescue and to keep being hurt. I now know that I was wrong to do so. It would have been better if I had minded my own business - for both me and them.

You who are sworn to protect your inane sister now want to hurt her? That is conflicting, isn't it?

I do agree that you had best keep your distance from your relatives, including your inane sister. Stop coming to her rescue. Allow her to mature.

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RE: I'm Pissed - 3/28/2007 9:36:58 PM

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Ok, i have to vent

This isn't the first time you've felt like this, RG. I think when you become this angry another alternative is to get into your ride, get out of Kissimmee, and head down to the Keys for a few days. Go meet up with the gay bikers club down there and have a few drinks with them

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RE: I'm Pissed - 3/28/2007 9:52:28 PM

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Even though I am sitting here chuckling, this post is just wrong.
Now, I want to go hang out with gay bikers.

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RE: I'm Pissed - 3/29/2007 3:13:05 AM

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Did I get that right? Your brother did hit you this new years? While you are pregnant? In my book, that is deserving of the gay bikers club comming after him to teach him a lesson or 20.

But good that you are venting. Keeping it in is not good for you.
Now, treat yourself, the baby and your little one to something nice.

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RE: I'm Pissed - 3/29/2007 6:22:50 AM

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1. real men do NOT hit ladies- EVER!

2. my dad always told me- "you may lose the fight, but get a good punch in".

3. a weaker person can clobber a strong person per "element of surprise".

4. ill give ya some sugar. [feel free to do da gastankz]

;-0~

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RE: I'm Pissed - 3/29/2007 9:03:59 AM

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You need to stop being around people who hit you.
Just don't associate with them!
I have two brothers one who I haven't seen in about 9 years the other in about 6 years.
To be honest I really don't want to see them on this planet again.
I don't put up with that hitting stuff at all!
Not from friends, family or strangers. Nor should you.

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RE: I'm Pissed - 3/29/2007 9:13:11 AM

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Poor sweetie. =( You sound like you need a circle o' girlfriends right now

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RE: I'm Pissed - 3/29/2007 11:19:09 AM

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ha ha - i shouldnt of posted that. But it was either calling up my mother or Master and in both cases, bad idea. Neither of them like the family very much and i didnt want to give yet another reaason to despise them. My mother already refuses to have anything to do with my grandmother.

Ranger, yeah i know - i've a temper. I've some massive hot buttons and for a family member that i have become close to, to insinuate that i deserve to be hit..... lol Bingo. I honestly havent many options when it comes to dealing with my anger. I've a 5 year old. i cant just get up and leave. All i have is to control my temper as best i can. I choose this avenue because it wouldnt affect anything in my day to day life. No one in "my" life comes here. Therefore, safe avenue that harms no one.

But what i did after was try and watch Saw 3 and then i emailed my father. Cos the little witch has a habit of lying and distorting things and i WASNT going to take any heat. i also finally took Master's advice and told my father that a fiasco that happened several years ago with my Grandmother, was not something i did. Took the heat for my grandmother, called myself a liar - all to keep peace in the family. ::smiles:: Then my little girl woke up and i laid down with her amazing at how lucky i was to have her in my life. Such a beautiful, sweet, happy - Always so happy, with such an awesome personality........ well behaved, intelligent...... she just rocks.

Yeah = ) i sat there amazing at how lucky i was to have her and i felt tons better. Life came into perspective again and i realised that i shouldnt let something so stupid get to me when i have such an awesome person here.

And now. i dont care. Whatever. Who is my sister to me, anyways? No one.

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RE: I'm Pissed - 3/29/2007 11:22:37 AM

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Popeye - i dont hang out with those that do that.
What i wrote here was things that happened in the past
And my sisters "take" on it

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