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Devilslilsister -> I'm Pissed (3/28/2007 8:21:47 PM)
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Ok, i have to vent. i will likely explode or do something stupid. I'm not calling up anyone and venting there because eventually i know i'll get over it and i dont want to damage anything. My stupid as cunt of a sister, after a conversation about what happened New Years with my brother said "i'm suprised you havent been hurt worse" So i was like, um i have.. i've had half my face swelled up and given two black eyes. Her response? "i'm not suprised" WTF is that? Is she that fucking stupid, that fucking dumb? Ah i lost a fuse. i told her to stfu and go away. And i was sitting here practically trembling with rage and i managed to IM her again and let her know that i was hit that hard, because i accidently swerved while driving.. and the guy i was driving with.. didnt like it so.. he tried to knock my lights out while i was driving. Yeah.. REAL called for. Thats right! i deserved for my brother to shove me into a wall, knock me off my feet and end up with with a knot on my head! No... the fact that i walked away.. was half way down the ship at the time doesnt count. i FUCKING WALKED away. And he fucking chased me. So whats the proper response? Curl up into a ball and beg not to be hurt? i've DONE that. All that does is A) still get you hurt and B) make you feel like shit about yourself. I might be fucking wacked, but i'd rather stand my ground and deal with whatever is coming my way then not see it coming. Hell if i can see it coming, i can hopefully minimize the damage.
i hope she rots in hell. Nah, what i hope is that one day somebody beats the shit out of her so she can wake up and smell the coffee. Its called being responsible for your ACTIONS. If you fucking lay hands on me.. its NOT my responsiblity. I should not have the power to "make" you do a damn thing.
But Nooooooooooo unfortunetly for HER - i stood my ground with our father - so SHE didnt get hit, so she didnt get beat. Should of let the ungratiful little cunt get the shit beat out of her when she was a kid. Put myself in the lne of fire for HER. Ignorant little bitch.
Aye and she's fucking lucky i wasnt standing there with her. Cos i'd of knocked her fucking block off. Looked at her and smile and said "yup yup - you deserved that" Give her a NEW perspective.
Why do i give these people second and third chances? WTF is wrong with me? So what, they grow up, they change, they mature.. they're STILL the same fucking people. Fucked up, ignorant ppl who cant be real for a second of their life. If they were just "people" i'd of been done with them when i was younger. But nooooooooooo they're blood.. and god sakes why cant i help but love them? They dont deserve it. They never have.
Ignorant little bitch. I hope she fails the semester, her boyfriend cheats on her and leaves her, my father cuts off her funds and she's left standing on her own whining about how miserable she is. God help her if she cant get her shit straightend out and everyone ends up treating her like shit because of it. When that day comes, i'm more of a vicious bitch then she realises and i'll rip her damn guts out. Yup yup, i'll find her at her lowest point and twist some more.
GAH and its not like i havent been rooting for her! She's not been doing well, she's fucking up, the men in my family are giving her shit.. and i've been trying to help. Talking to my father, my brother, telling them to be understanding.. trying to HELP her. Being there for her miserable little ass. The night started off with her whining about her boyfriend. I listened, i gave advice, i understood, i let her whine.. i was loving.. supportive.. all those fucking things....... and what?
Fuck her. Fuck her to hell. Spoiled ass little princess. And Newp - i dont plan on talking to her again. If some one is going to hurt me, i am not going to be a dumb ass to put myself in a position to be hurt again. She'll be lucky if i speak to her with in 5 years and i know better then to be in the same room with her. I'd like to knock her teeth down her throat. Oh yeah, and i'd take complete responsiblity for knocking her teeth down her throat.
But of course - if she realises the error of her ways, apologizes i might forgive her. Because, unfortunetly, i am a forgiving bitch. I would be alot better off if the majority of my family members fell over and died.
Luckily for me - none of them play a major role in my life. So i can content myself with ignoring the shit out of them for as long as i please. Rot in HELL.
How ....... could....... she? Now, i knew she was slightly moronic and i understood alot of her issues and her perspective.. but this shit blows me away. i'm STILL angry. And even knowing that she's an ignorant little bitch doesnt make me feel any better. But atleast i'm not trembling with anger and seeing red now = ) I'm calming down to where i'd almost like to go back and start ripping into her. Gah it would be so easy. So easy to climb into her head....
But - there are other ways to calm myself. Like posting here and then going and watching Saw 3.
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