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NuevaVida -> RE: Dreams... (10/9/2011 11:40:33 PM)
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ORIGINAL: soul2share
The disturbing dreams I have involve signals pointing to a loss of control on my part. The most realistic one is where my teeth are literally crumbling out of my gums. And I can FEEL each little piece of tooth rolling around in my mouth, and each one breaking apart. The first thing I do when I wake up is run my tongue over my teeth...just checking, yanno! And the other one involves me chewing gum.....it continually gets stuck on my teeth, and I have to reach in and pull it off my teeth.....and I can feel the sensations of putting my fingers in my mouth and the tugging to remove the gum.
Since I was a kid I had these teeth dreams. I haven't had one in a couple of years, thank God. In my teeth dreams, my jaw starts opening and slamming shut uncontrollably, so hard that my teeth start to splinter and cut through my gums. I can feel the pain in my dream. Then they start crumbling and coming out of my mouth, but a film begins to form in my mouth, gagging me, and I try to spit it out with the teeth, but it just gets all goopy and messy and painful. Meanwhile, my hands are literally trying to hold my jaw still, but failing. I usually wake up in a full blown anxiety attack from these.
Soon after my divorce, I had dreams of my ex husband trying to kill me. Again, these were very vivid, in color, frightening, and physically painful. The most memorable was when he pushed me to the ground and began stomping on my throat. I woke myself up screaming. He appears in my dreams from time to time now, but more as an annoyance than anything else.
I've had several very vivid and realistic nightmares which have woken me up in anxiety attacks. That's the worst, because they're so real, and I wake up shaking and hyperventilating, and very confused about where I am and what just happened. These are few and far between anymore- whew. When I do get them, I call the Mister and he calms me and stays on the phone with me until I'm falling back to sleep.
I've had several dreams of my grandmother (deceased) checking on me. These are rather beautiful, and so realistic I feel like we've actually had a visit. I love those. When she died, I had a dream that she came to me and said goodbye. I woke up and it was 4:40 in the morning. My Dad called me later that morning to say she had died...and it was around the same time as my dream.
And then there was the dream in which I was attacked by beanie babies, but we don't talk about that one. [8D]
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