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I was talking ! - 12/31/2009 7:39:44 AM   
Termyn8or


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I find myself getting interrupted in conversations frequently. Many times in my own house I have said "Ummm, didn't you fucking notice that I was talking ?". With some people I can't even get a whole sentence out. With the dominant personality I have, I think this a strange abberation. I try not to do it to others, though admittedly I do from time to time. But at least I try.

I have figured out an effective way to fight back without violaence, and yes I used to use violence but it proved to be inneffectual. I do not keep doing what does not work. So for years now people have left here bruise free even after bringing my aggravation quotient up to the max even. What I do is let them talk.

I sit there and listen, and usually it is a bunch of bullshit, so "And you rudely interrupted me for this ?". "Sorry, what were you saying ? It was interesting but I just said what popped into my mind". At that point I feign lack of memory, and at times I simply say "No". Yes I DO remember what I was saying but apparently it is of no improt to you MF". I leave out the MF unless I am really getting fed up, like in the case of multiple instances and apaolgies. One after another. Really that is why I tried violence.

The theory behind that is available upon request, some may not like it so I will spare the forum. But this phenomenon is a bit aggravating. Mind you I do not get angry, even with the violence I was simply trying to be corrective.

At the moment my only resolution is to be more me. But then I don't know everything and part of that is whether I am being reasonable. The fact is that I have things to say, important things atr times, and it still happens. I will be in conference with my boss and out of my mouth come words like "Well, the options are to lose $1,000 or to make $1,000 and what it's going to take is" ZOTT !

Here's a fucking yokel, "Hey Tony, are we out of AAA batteries ?". Or "Sadie's on the phone". Bullshit like that. Sans violence of course I plan to use my technique there, to clam up. "I forgot what I was going to say". Cost money and count off two minutes knowing I got a dollar in my pocket for the aggravation. This does help quite a bit.

Now I know that in any given instance everyone thinks he is in the right. I am fucking good and smart, and quite an asset no matter where I work, let alone on my field. I know this so take it as a given as I have references to that effect. At my last job I was never interupted, ever. I mean never. Sometimes I interrupted in fact, and when I discovered that I had, I would back down immediately and say "Sorry, this can wait a minute". Something like that. I tried to be polite. Much good it did me now.

So my resolution is to be more me, more assertive and possibly even mean if it comes to push and shove. To quit swallowing it. I have authority and am about to start using it more. At home, at work, everywhere. In either venue I am the money Man, and my words should hold their own weight. I do not mince words, I make my point short and direct.

This also includes an education plan for my boss, worked last time, in fact you can call them. Their business model is my idea implemented and they are very successful, moreso than my current employ, but I was there for decades, the new place haqs only had five years of me. But this is a good place to start.

Of course when the phone rings there is nothing anyone can do about it, but I hold my tongue. I have also gone alot faerther. When people stand in the aisle and I can't get through I don't say a word. I watch the clock. This is work. When I see someone coming I get out of their way. They hold me up in any way I go have a smoke. I get6 blown off by some asshole I just count the money coming in and consider it a break.

Now along with that comes something else. I was NEVER interrupted at the old place, but I was never held up. They worked me hard, and I have come to miss that. I, unlike alot of people, prefer to be as productive as possible. As such I do not waste time nor words, but other waste both my time and words. In the last five years I have only insisted on a few things. One is that a certain person is never to handle a certain type of job because it is beyond them. The boss totally supported that, and even though it was true and took a load off the guy, it seemed he was a bit put off. If I were he I would be grateful and say "Good, I hope I never see one of those jobs again". But not your average yokel.

As I have asserted, I have been on both sides of the big desk, and I know what it takes to make money in this near profitless field. Yet people with hardly any skill or experience, who use local and internet databases to solve problems and have no clue on how to figure the problem out for themselves refuse to listen to over thirty years of experience. This is a tough business and for my own future this must be corrected. It might even help me return to a state of sanity one day :-)

If problems are not solved, if people keep doing things by rote in a changing environment we will be a dinosaur, soon to be extinct. That requires at least one person who knows what the fuck they are doing, and that would be me. And that I see as part of my job. Just as I perform to maintain employment, does it not follow that I should at least attempt to ensure that this source of income is maintained ?

Now don't tell me about the heirarchy of things. I already know that but I am not your average customer. I now where true power lies and have been trying not to use it. ButI think that is a fight that I will concede. That I will be more forceful a forthwith. That I will asset myself more. That in doing so I am sure to enhance my future prospects once again. I taught my last boss(es) and I can teach this one. I think it high time to start.

I know I don't own the company. I don't want to, in fact where I work right now is the fourth place that has been offered to me, to have. The ex owner would hold the paper, I would run it, pay it off and be the new boss. Four times they have pulled out the big chair for me and I refused to sit down.

Perhaps I should ? I have to admit it is almost scary because I knw what is happening to this business and I don't think my personal resources could carry it throught he hard times.

So do I acquiesce(sp) or assert ?

We all know the wrong people are running the world, should I take a stab at changing that ? You just don't know how bad I can be. If I had alot of resouces I would be very bold. I would sit in that big chair. I would find my certain ethnic lawyers and sue foreign entities in US federal court citing that their actions affect interstate commerce. I would get lobbyists. I would do alot of things, but the industry is in such a delapidated state that I would never acquire the resources in time to make any impact.

OK, I know the world is going to end, I know the ecomony is going to collapse, I know there will be gangs running the streets, and probably half of them will be ex cops at some point. I know there will be a big war and thereis still that possibility of a big meteor. But I will not act upon those notions because I have found that every time you do, you just come out smelling like shit when you went in smelling like a rose. It's almost as if just knowing that you're going to die makes for the best prevention.

So if you have a nice tight knit family like some people I know, and find yourself recusing yourself from the festivities at least you have something to take your mind off of it.

T

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RE: I was talking ! - 12/31/2009 12:36:42 PM   
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With some people I can't even get a whole sentence out.

This doesn't really fit with the mental image I have built up of you
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I do not mince words, I make my point short and direct.

Quite

Happy new year Termyn8or and just remember you can decide to change your ways any day of the year not just one specific day. I actually think perhaps if people tried to change their ways at non specific times of the year rather than to fit in with new year tradition then they would stick to such changes more easily. Most people that make resolutions fail because they are doing it for the wrong reason.


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RE: I was talking ! - 12/31/2009 2:34:31 PM   
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Status: offline 		Why would you post this twice? You posted an almost identical thread at least a couple of months ago.

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RE: I was talking ! - 12/31/2009 2:48:29 PM   
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Why would you post this twice? You posted an almost identical thread at least a couple of months ago.


Maybe he thought nobody was listening?




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RE: I was talking ! - 12/31/2009 2:50:50 PM   
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I find myself getting interrupted in conversations frequently. Many times in my own house I have said "Ummm, didn't you fucking notice that I was talking ?". With some people I can't even get a whole sentence out. With the dominant personality I have, I think this a strange abberation. I try not to do it to others, though admittedly I do from time to time. But at least I try.



You're a Terminator, god damn it! Rip their fucking hearts right out of their chests!

Don't worry, it's not as extreme as it sounds. You'll probably only have to do it once or twice before word gets around and people shut up whenever you clear your throat.


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RE: I was talking ! - 1/2/2010 3:34:04 PM   
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Lol, sometimes I do feel like ripping some vital organs right out of people's bodies, but my internal processor is fitted with a working superego, so I don't.

Loki is right, I did get a feeling of Deja Vu when I wrote this. But the actual memory of the original has been swapped from recent RAM and placed in a cache, just like quite a few of my memories. It happens. I swear if I learn one more thing I am afraid of forgetting my own name.

At any rate, the idea, after processing the thought a bit, is to be effective. It is hard to explain. For example, I think my boss owes me forty bucks. I want it, but only under the condition that he remembers it, not due to any desire to appease me. But there is too much going on and I might as well consider that forty as gone as the TP I put in that kawoosh machine in the bathroom earlier, what do they call them thaings agin ? In other words I do not want to extort it from him even if I am actually owed. Get it ?

I want people to grow into knowing when to STFU, as well as to instinctively get the fuck out of my way when they see me coming. I don't want to accomplish this via threat or intimidation. Well perhaps a bit in the beginning, sort of like steering them toward it.

I think this important, thus my rant. Even the most advanced master manipulator, the world's greatest teacher, orator, motivational speaker, is totally ineffective if his words are not heard. That makes it important.

In other words, why the fuck did I bother to learn how to talk in the first place ?

But then something just occurred to me. Is it possible that the knowledge itself is what is intimidating ? I'll have to give that some thought.

But like the forty buck question, I could walk in there and demand forty bucks or else I quit. He would probably take two twenties in his own hand and put them in my pocket for me, but that is not what I want.

Remember the old commercial. A guy is sitting in a restaurant and says "Well my broker is EF Hutton and he says.." with that the din of the restaurant becomes silence immediately and they all look. Am I good enough, smart enough and articulate enough to command something like that ? Time will tell, if everybody can STFU for a minute !

Maybe I'm just full of myself. But I got the flameproof suit handy just in case.

T

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RE: I was talking ! - 1/2/2010 4:04:09 PM   
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Status: offline 		Termy, I've toldya before, take it from someone who knows, m'kay ? Take the straw outta yer nose and put the booze down. Yer on a road well travelled that leads to only one place, dude.

I actually think you are an intelligent, kind and well meaning man. But the rants are familiar and, frankly, boring. You know what it's like to be up in the early hours listening to a bunch of drunken snow heads talking shit .

Knock it off and get yer shit tight, dude. I like to hear what you have to say when you're straight.

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RE: I was talking ! - 1/2/2010 9:36:46 PM   
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Dude, what it is is interruptions. It is no attention span.  This can go on with screaming kids, cell phones, and worse of all, TV.

My advice on this- pick your battles carefully.  "I need your undivided attention for this topic".  Becoming a windbag makes you boorish.  So use it sparingly- only when it best suits.

But consider that  no one has an attention span.  When I see family 1000 things going on.  It is almost like- how is this spending time with someone.  I have already wanted to tell them to turn off the phone.   But - then I risk becoming boorish.

So this then gets back to- at what points is the conversation paramont to call for "undivided attention"?  

Next- point out in a non confrontational way- that no one focuses on anything.   TV is a shouting match.  JERRY JERRY.

Heck all of modern life is now a JERRY FUCK.

You can use body signals to show your displeasure.  Tilt your head when you want more- point or fold arms when it is hog wash.

There is some to be said about the strong silent type.

... IMO cell phones hopped up this lack of concentration.

Send them all to a shrink and he will rx speed for ADHD.  LOL.  Did I say that?  lololol

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RE: I was talking ! - 1/2/2010 9:46:33 PM   
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Status: offline 		Timing is everything.  Time and place.   In my life I have had some duezy of conversations.

Weather to be bold or silent is a intrigit call.   As to your boss- that is a package deal.   Numerous aspects in that- your set up is not typical- so traditional advice is not a sure thing.

To the internet guy- does he want to solve the problem or flap his gums?

It sounds like you spent a month with some big time speed freaks.    JERRY JERRY.  lol

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RE: I was talking ! - 1/3/2010 2:17:16 AM   
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I have hung with and partied with speed freaks but I don't, that shit makes my dick shrink. Talk about drinking ? People do think I am drunk at times when the only input they have is text. They do not understand that this is really the way I am, that I am outspoken and such to that degree that I see where some, who do not posess the exact faculties which I do, could percieve me in that light.

In other words, yes I am really that bad. I have wrecked funerals and weddings with words, even without a drop of alcohol or any intoxicant. But I do understand the misunderstanding. However in realizing that I am discovering myself in a way, specifically just how dominant I really am. Just how different I am. You just don't know, how different my background was.

You don't even see the fact that I see the fact that they taught me how to read before school, so that I might be better able to take care of myself, and thus them in the waning years. You don't see that I see the true motives behind what alot of these Springer candidates do. You don't know that within an hour of meeting you face to face, I will know you better than you know yourself. Sometimes it takes a bit longer, but if I push it I can get it done in that time. I have been studying people and psychology for thirty seven fucking years. Same with electronics and engineering. I don't claim to e a master of anything, but I can say assuredly that my education was well rounded.

I am different. That doesn't really make me special, it just delineates the differnce between me and those outside my chamber door. I used to have a problem with being different but now I am proud of it. But that in history has had an infulence. I no longer seek to become part of the crowd, I now seek to lead the crowd. I am not a follower, and never have been really. I won't get out of the way so my only choice is to lead.

I live life the way I want. For anyone who doesn't like it I have several options. There is a wooden device on the front of my house, I am not on the other side. The phone has an "end" button. There is also an X at the upper right corner of this window that can end this quite succinctly.

The fact is that after my recent illness, I have gained more concern for the value of each day. I could die any fucking day, I could get run over or whatever. But in this light I will do whatever I want whenever I want until the day I die. To do any less is to cheat myself.

You think I'm drunk or something, that is just fine because I don't care what other people think. This is my life, and if you want to start trying to trade your leftover days for mine, if it were possible, then maybe we can talk about it.

I admit I had it good. Fucking crucify me then. There's something I haven't tried. I know I didn't make myself, at least not completely. What would you have me do ? How can I atone for this ? My early life apparently was the perfect mixture of goodness and strife, of good and evil, of right and wrong. Nobody could plan this. This was not all the doing of my Parents, it was the world at large. So I took what I took, and I DO try to give back when I can.

I have maneuvered myself into a position of power, which I do not abuse. I use it to help others. I am proud of what I am and more importently what I did for myself. I had a good solid base, for which I am very thankful. But my family would never accept me being the sum of my parts as acceptable. They wanted more.

They got more. I reeducated my own Mother in business, and it hurt her. But then she got into the thick and never had to worry about money again. My own Father used to say "You make me feel like a child". Now there's a humdinger for ya. The guy who taught me about 40% realistically of what I know about business said this to me verbatim.

I am more than the sum of my parts and they are proud, even when it caused them some embarrassment. That is the natural order of things. Your kids are supposed to smarter than you, what is the alternative ?

And nobody has any idea how fast I can think. At work I can pull in a grand in the first hour, and then sit in the office, have a smoke and say "How about them dogs, I'm in the mood". I can outjoke almost anyone in the verbal sense, and when it comes to other things, I am right there. You just don't know how I am.

It is so bad that I frequently have to temper my responses so others can catch up. Sometimes I laugh at certain things, and nobody understands. Sometimes I say "Whatever you do, don't do that again" when what I am thinking is "See this garbage can here, I am enrolling you in an IQ contest with it".

But then I have found that judging others purely on their abilities is just as bas as judging them on skin color. Abilities say nothing of their true motives, their honesty or loyalty, absolutley nothing. You may respect one's abilities, but that doesn't mean shit in the end.

So I am going to take my drunk ass to bed soon. In the morning my IQ will be back up closer to it's normal 200+ and maybe I can respond more effectively then.

I remember my boss (at the old place) saying to me "Gee I wish I could get myself to the point where I didn't need money". I did not respond but my thought was "I bet you do" THAT is exactly what the fuck I am talking about. Fuck all the bullshit, work for what you need and want. If you do not stray from that path you will succeed.

Yup, I'm just a drunken asshole who should be ignored.

T

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RE: I was talking ! - 1/3/2010 2:25:59 AM   
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Status: offline 		I don't have any idea what you said Term... Seriously longggggggggggg posts.  Maybe find the jewel of what you are saying?  I can't listen to all that.  Consolidate, man.

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RE: I was talking ! - 1/3/2010 4:24:15 AM   
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In a world gone mad- one seriously has to consider that mediocrity is a bad thing.   I don't view your rants as drug/liquor induced.   There was only one time- and I emailed you on that. (some time ago)

But because you DO a thoro post and many cant and wont- the criticism is unfair. 

The whole idea of a message board is to exchange ideas.   Not one sided- and not to be all passive or all active.  Anything less then that and the user may as well play video games.

So- don't take the few comments too seriously above.

The world is messed up and we do the best we can do.

Also- IMO if people STOPPED and re-read some of your posts- they would not be so curved ball about them.  That they are well thought out- and if someone does not have the time- the intellect to banter on it- then,  lets not ruin the others that do.

A monkey can play video games.  The point is- a forum is an exchange of ideas where each person has the chance to grow.

Oh my ADHD comment was hinted with sarcasm. Because I have ADHD.   :-)  But then we all knew that.



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RE: I was talking ! - 1/3/2010 4:28:28 AM   
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I don't have any idea what you said Term... Seriously longggggggggggg posts.  Maybe find the jewel of what you are saying?  I can't listen to all that.  Consolidate, man.


Stop interrupting!

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RE: I was talking ! - 1/3/2010 4:42:29 AM   
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Status: offline 		Termy, you know you're one of my favourite posters here on these boards. Always have been. The main reason is is that you are authentic - always authentic. You are an individual. There can only ever be one Termyn8or on these boards, and I'm sure that if anyone ever came on these boards pretending to be you most of the regular posters would spot them a mile off.

I still put serious money on you being somehow directly related to Stephen King.

My advice though is to stop living in the past and live in the here and now, the present. The past is gone, it's history, yesterday is too late, and to me life is really what is happening right here and now, today, right under your nose.

Also while people might be interested in what you have to say, they might even be interested in what you think, but most of all you will find that people are most interested in what you are doing. If the words were really all that important in life then we would all be writers, poets and politicians, but life to me is defined by what we do with it. Doing not only prevents you from talking too much, but it also gives you something to talk about that people might be interested in.



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RE: I was talking ! - 1/3/2010 11:15:44 AM   
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First of all I appreciate the kind words and even the comcerns about my mental condition. Way better than a flat out "fuckya" to say the least.

Maybe one thing I like about posting and corresponding is that I do not get interrupted. I can type all day long and there ain't a damn thing anyone can do about it. HA HA ! Things that have been said about me in in regular life do range just as people's opinion of me here. First of all there are some interruptions that ore OK, if someone needs clarification, but random thoughts mid sentence tend to aggravate me. It has been said that when talking to me, try not to interrupt because (up until the last few years) he will put a bruise on your arm. Or leg if it is more convenient. Don't get him hitting on your leg, damnm, one day I could hardly walk. But listen to that motherfucker because he usually has a point, and sometimes it doesn't come out until the end. But then everything falls into place and it makes sense.

Those are not my words. They are the words of people who have known me for decades. Now if I used to bruise them up so bad, why do they continue to come around ? Even with my past, knuckle dragging - cave man tactics of the past I have only scared away one person, Norm the Chiseler. He used to come over very late and very drunk, loud to the point that I was concerned about my neighbors. Note that this is from one who will crank up 400 watts at 4 AM. But this guy would not shutup, would not lower his voice, and what a voice. If this guy was a singer he would not need a microphone.

I told him several times that he was welcome here for a beer, but stop by BEFORE you go to the bar and have 17 shots of whiskey. So what if I was half in the bag as well, the kettle was still black. I am not proud of every action I have taken in my life and wish I would've done something different. As drunk as the stupid fuck got sometimes, I miss him. He's a big Neitchze fan, which is OK, and he has a degree in pnilosophy. But yelling about it at the top of one's lungs at 4 AM is just not warranted. Neighbors actually talked to me about it and I told them that I would have a talk with him about it. I did, time and time again. Funny, they didn't mention the loud music that night, just this guy's voice.

Now I seem to be known as a vestige of virtue, a peacekeeper of all the pieces and so forth, but that last visit from the Chiseler was different. Ironically I don't blame him, I blame myself. I didn't totally lose it, but I did smash his head into a very solid speaker. Those things can hurt. His blood spurted halfway across the rom an onto the screen of my bigsreen TV. FYI you can't clean those things, and that blood is there to this day, I do have a replacement screen, but that is not the point. He said "Man I knew you were heavy duty, but not that heavy duty". After that I refused to let him leave for an hour as he continued to bleed all over the floor. That's why I don't own a vacuum cleaner, time comes I just replace the carpet.

Now the thing is, this is all in the past and it connot be changed. But the realization of this fact certainly changed me. I don't do it anymore, no matter what. I reevaluated, among other things, my goal. What is the point of me talking ? I want to be understood. This was obviously counterproductive in that sense.

And I try to tell people "Look motherfucker, one of these days you will get old enough, and you are going to remember every nasty thing you have ever done in your life, and it NEVER ever goes away". I believe that to be the crux of true morality. I do not want any more guilt. Some day late at night you lay in bed and think, I can't believe this person still talks to me after this shit.

I call it a guilt load, and I can just about handle what I got, but one more straw could break this camel's back. No more, never. It took me decades to just realize it, and then some to deal with it in a sane manner. I can handle it, but really I don't want any more. We discuss scammers and all that and I would love to outscam them, but that would bring me no guilt. Screwing the banks out of six figures, no guilt at all. Telling the government to go fuck off, again, no guilt at all.

But those I know, whom I call friends, my family and business associates (in some cases are one and the same), and even the unmet stranger on the street, I will not hurt, I will help if I can. This is where I am at. This does not come from some five thousand year old book, a ton of goobltygock coming from our ever so prolific government, nor the words of any Man (or Woman) living or dead. In fact to this day I explore just where it came from.

Perhaps the fact of the matter is that to know good one must do, or at least have done evil. It seems a reasonable conclusion at this time but I do not declare it as fact. It is simply my observation based on 49 years of study. Study of myself as well as others. Before I discarded religion in all it's forms I would declare that God could not exist without the Devil, and that possibly the Devil is a part of God. His necessary purpose is to provide a discernable delineation between good and evil, and I used a piece of paper to illustrate the point.

You see, the paper means nothing without the ink. In other words if everything is good, how do you know the difference ?

Well in my case the paper has plenty of ink, to the point where it is hard to find a place to print anything. My life is that page, and while at one time I did actually pray for amnesia, that's not right either. To forget or ignore my past is to exorcise part of what I am. Selective amnesia is not for me.

Don't get me wrong now. There are people who know me well and once they do they are fiercely loyal. I can send the boyz out so to speak and get just about anything I want. I could order executions and it wouldn't cost me a dime. But I don't want that, for two reasons. First of all I have no real enemies, and NO I did not kill them all. Second of all, these people are my friends and I don't want them taking unnecessary risk. But if someone fucks with my family I can unleash a veritable army to make sure they feel some remorse. I can't make them feel guilt, but I can surely make them sorry.

But then I see life differently now. I do not make enemies out of people who cut me off on the highway, take my parking spot, cut ahead of me in line, things like that. I let alot just roll off my back, it's not worth it. What I would do in the past is a different story. You would not cut me off on the highway, I could outrun your shitcan any day of the week, and had the gas recipts to prove it, as well as almost 500 HP. Parking spot ? Not only would I, but I have pushed two car and a truck at the same times, all in park, to have my parking spot. Cut in front of me in line ? Even in the bank you are going to hit the fucking floor.

I just ain't like that anymore.

I didn't find God (or did I ?) in fact I lost Him. He wasn't doing me any good. Introspection has been proven to be the true saviour. I have to live with myself for the rest of my life, there is no getting out of it. The stupidest thing I could do given these facts is to make that any more difficult.

Perhaps this is canned morality, and one size does fit all. But you don't get a can opener until a certain day.

Once you get the can opener, those worms crawling around are all your own creation.

T

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RE: I was talking ! - 1/3/2010 11:22:30 AM   
lusciouslips19


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Status: offline 		I have always seen you as a smart guy with a good heart. But I always figured you are a flaming alcoholic that has his beer with breakfast. I know you said you are getting better and will be working out soon. If you are drinking yourself into a stupor. Cant stop drinking once you start, I think you arent going to get better but will lead to an early grave. I hope you take care of your issues as we really do care about you here.

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RE: I was talking ! - 1/3/2010 11:39:34 AM   
kdsub


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Status: offline 		I hope you take this in the right way because it is meant with no malice. Just look at all of your posts in this thread compared to the answers.

You use too many words to express a thought…If you do this at home people may need to interrupt you just to get a word in edgewise.

Maybe I am lazy…hell I know I am but I often give up reading some of your posts because they are too long.

My advice…worth little granted…. Would be to think how you could condense your posts into three or four small paragraphs at the most. It is always easy to follow up if needed.

Butch


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RE: I was talking ! - 1/3/2010 6:43:09 PM   
Termyn8or


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NEVER assume that.

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RE: I was talking ! - 1/3/2010 7:13:38 PM   
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Status: offline 		..and 5 Italians can yell all dinner long and at the end have had a nice dinner.

/foot stomp!/   that settles it- Term- we will send you to Italian finishing school.

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RE: I was talking ! - 1/3/2010 8:56:30 PM   
kdsub


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Status: offline 		My dear father died in 1984 and in a few years my mother meet this lovely man that everyone in the family loved. He would tell the greatest stories and had an opinion on everything. His opinions would inspire responses in a group of people but they never got a chance to express them because he just could not stop talking.

We still loved him but often conspired to cut him off because once he got started he would kill interest and conversation. You would not want to listen or talk with him if you could not express your own thoughts.

He died a few years ago as well and we all miss him...even his long told over and over stories as his mind went. I wish he were here to still ignore...lol

I'm glad to of known him but it could have been an even more special and great experience if we could of exchanged ideas even more...God Bless him. This may not be you but if so I'll bet you will enjoy conversation with loved ones even more… If you let them join in more often. Conversations become dynamic and much more interesting when everyone can express themselves.

Butch


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