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RE: The concept of searching during changing circumstances - 4/9/2009 3:56:47 PM

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Well, how timely this is LP! We've sold Our house, the 33-foot fifth wheeler van is parked outside awaiting some custom modifications and then getting Our gear packed into it, and We have to be out of here by 18th May! So, yes, life at the moment is pretty busy. In fact I shouldn't really be here ... Master just came in and said "you're avoiding work aren't you pet" LOL! He knows me oh so well.

What I have been wrestling with is the fact that My search for a live in sub will basically be on hold for the next 2-3 years while We are travelling around and I am working on My PhD. At the end of that, I would hope to grab a Uni job for a few years but that could be anywhere. So maybe that puts off the permanent sub till I'm 60 ... and then I get into the negative of "will I still attract anyone then?" Frustrating as I am a Duality and Master and I both know that only having Him and only being sub is not enough. My Domme side badly needs a work out! So what do I plan to do? Well, I'm hoping that mobility will be a plus in actually meeting people in different areas. I hope to still check into collarme from time to time, and chat to people I would like to meet when passing their way. I hold the hope that one of those might actually click and be "the one". At that point, We could be LDR until We settle somewhere hopefully mutually agreeable, or if they were so inclined, they could get a small camper and travel along! They'd only need their own driving seat and bed, We have all the other facilities on board. In other words, I am trying to think positively and see this as a potential benefit for My subby hunt as well as for all other aspects of Our life. I have to do that, it keeps Me sane!

Good luck with Your own move LP. And Padriag, at 50+ I have become a rock singer (defying My longstanding role as a folkie) ... I'm having a blast ... enjoy it to the max!
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Edited to add: Re the toys: Our local D/s friends are caresitting the cross and subby seat, other bits of furniture will go into storage, and We will be taking a compact and lightweight toybag with Us! When We moved across here 2 years ago, We brought the musical instruments, computers, and toys in the car/trailer with Us! Though the removalists had to handle the cross (which they listed on the inventory as "wooden frame" LOL!) and looked a bit curious at the bondage bed too. When unpacking, the lad carrying the cross asked "What do you do with this?" and I said "I'm not sure you'd want to find out" at which he blushed and avoided Me from then on.

(Yeah, I'm wicked)

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RE: The concept of searching during changing circumstances - 4/10/2009 6:49:15 AM

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ORIGINAL: RumpusParable

For me, knowing I'm moving means I start the search in the new place. I had a lot of feelers out for Dallas months before the move and am having a hard time keeping in touch with even just a couple people right now due to how full my life is. But, due to those feelers, I've met some great folks even when it didn't work out.

<snipping some out to address the particular points>

I also have the view that circumstances are always subject to change with no warning, so why worry too much about it? My whole life could turn upside down tomorrow or theirs could, no use limiting ourselves due to it.

Now here's the funny part, Rumpus. You probably 'get' the situation much better than most people. Add into that the fact that it comes with both of us looking at leaving from the same place.

I haven't exactly put "feelers" out. At least not in the D/s sense. If anything, I've made some inquiries of folks who are in somewhat the same location (I do plan to do more of that) but in general, they are people on the same side of the kneel. There are a number of people that I absolutely can't wait to meet.

As far as contacting prospects, I admit I haven't done that. While it is absolutely the intelligent solution to My query, I'm hesitant in doing it because I don't want to fall into the time wasting trap. Very cynical of Me, I know, but that's what prevents Me from doing it.

The possibility of things changing at a moment's notice is true, but I don't focus on that much. Once the dust settles, I figure it will be very much a repeat of how it worked when we landed here. I'll be stable again for a few years.

I hope you and yours are doing well. We certainly miss you in this neck of the woods.

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RE: The concept of searching during changing circumstances - 4/10/2009 9:59:36 AM

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I'm kind of caught in the departure lounge of life so to speak, and there's so many variables here it's not funny. I've just come out of a relationship which wasn't going to work out but which became a learning curve all of it's own.

Easter is coming, and it's been over three years but I'm back in the Fringe, the theatre is expanding slowly, we have a venue and all the people involved in the theatre have got through all the additional training necessary to be able to work with me. We're abandoning form and convention, and here at least there's a lot to be optimistic about. It's taken me over 19 years to achieve what I'm about to achieve and thankfully I'm only going through this process once in London - I don't think I could pull it off a second time. Half of what I'm doing is being created or developed for what will be after I am gone, and some will travel with me.

I've given up on any sort of personal relationship. It's not fair, it's not fair to someone when you cannot show any sort of commitment, where you are planning to relocate, and even when it comes to stuff like casual play it's just not worth it. Far better to develop and cultivate friendships and stick with those. I've given up searching, and instead have decided to focus on my writing and my work in theatre.

All this is open-ended.. There is actually someone in mind, but she's in the States, but I'm not welcome in the States because the authorities are of the opinion that I plan to settle there illegally - despite the fact I've never really been there, never overstayed a visa, and cannot even get permission to visit the country.

It's okay, because there is actually Canada, my family are in Toronto, I'm visa exempt, and living just north of the US border looks quite comfortable to me. I don't welcome the confrontational stance of the US authorities, I have never needed anything or to be anywhere in the United States, not least for my success in theatre - I'm doing quite well in Europe and with the occasional productions of my plays in Australia and New Zealand, and this can continue. The only time I tried to come to the States was a couple of years ago when I tried to set up a project in the southern part of Mississippi working out of Biloxi and seeking to set up a new wave of fringe theatres in towns such as Bay St Louis, Gulfport, Pascalouga, and perhaps moving into Alabama.

I have the summer to decide which festivals to enter for the Touring of the Canadian Association of Fringe Festivals and it's nothing for me not to enter any of the festivals in the US - in Orlando, Indianapolis, New York, Boulder or San Francisco - there's plenty of festivals in Canada to choose from. All my projects, even for the States, are self-financing, apart from space and people there's nothing I really need from the States. I was looking to contribute something to American culture, but it's no skin off my nose if that contribution is not wanted.

This is the crappy aspect of any trans-Atlantic relationship - the ridiculous need for approval from the authorities, and it doesn't matter what side of the Atlantic you're on, the authorities still expect you to sit it out and wait for their decision.

Not for the first time, the American authorities miss the point completely. The actual issue isn't about same sex relationships, it's not even about healthcare, but about gender recognition. I am a UK citizen with a passport in female gender which is lawfully obtained with supporting medical evidence. This is what the Americans are disputing, but in their dispute they are also actually denying sovereignty to the United Kingdom. My legal identity and other documents are in the name of Stella, I have only one legal identity and not as the Americans claim two.

Various diplomatic efforts have tried and failed to find a solution. Ken Livingstone, the former Mayor of London has tried on at least two occasions to get Washington to change their stance. President Bush on at least one occasion refused to intervene. My actual plans are to finish up what I am doing in London, relocate to Toronto and sit it out there whilst having a good time in Canada.

Things actually are okay, I'm equipped to develop an international LDR and I've decided to go for the long haul. Trying to set up a successful D/s relationship via the Internet is something I've never really been successful at, and looking back, there's been a consistent pattern where I've been making the same mistakes time after time after time. It's not that my submission is a gift (well not much different a gift than a bout of influenza) but it is something which in theory is meant to happen on my terms. I've come to the decision that I'd rather hold out, wait, let things develop over a long period of time, something which comes out of friendship and something on equal terms at least in the beginning.

I'm done with superficial, shallow relationships where the dynamic happens before anything else. There's nothing worse than being lonely and in a relationship, I'd rather be lonely and free to be lonely, and I just see no point in bestowing the title of Mistress or whatever on a woman unless she's pretty amazing or special enough to find herself at the very epicentre of my life and a damn good friend.

I'm also restricted somewhat by my lifestyle, which is very much Fringe theatre, theatre workshops, being creative, and at times travelling and touring. Festival season happens through the summer, I love festivals, I love touring, giving workshops, and I'd originally planned to quit directing in autumn, but i feel as if I'm losing a major part of my life. At the moment I'm booking as many performances as I can and gathering reviews.

Maybe something will change with the Americans at some point in the future and I will be able to go south and tour US cities but that depends more on Washington than it does me. And I'm not holding my breath.

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