ProlificNeeds
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Think of it like stubbing your toe... OR, stubbing your toe while half the bones in your body are broken. You pay attention to a stubbed toe more when there's less pain swimming around, but if you've got bigger issues to worry about, the stubbed toe is meaningless. Likewise, with sensory deprivation (sight) you are swimming with trying to discern many things that you can no longer see, not just the person in question. Try this on for size. If your top is wearing a mask, then blind folds you, and you keep imagining him in the mask even though you can't see, where is your focus? On your lack of sight, or on the idea of him being in the mask? We rely heavily on our senses, if he is merely standing behind you, you think "Well if only I could turn around, then I could see him." But with a mask, even if you could see him, your sense of sight would fail you because it can't penitrate the mask. I can't say it is this way for anyone else, but speaking just on a personal level: To me, being armed, and STILL being ineffectual, is scarier than being unarmed and ineffectual. So, having my sight taken away, I feel disarmed, I am relieved of the ability to try and see. The whole 'there's nothing I can do about it' mentality will kick in. When I still have my sight, but am unable to 'read' the person I can see, it's unnerving. They didn't have to rob me of my full capacity and ability to make me ineffectual, they did it leaving me completely intact and at my best. That's what really inspires a feeling of fear/helplessness/anxiety in me. I don't know if that makes any sense, but maybe it will at least help you reflect on your own feelings and reactions towards masking.
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