Prinsexx
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He rings. it been two months at least since we have seen each other although he has text abd called many times which I have ignored.
My head is outside the dynamic. My body is not.
We talk. Like friends would.
Something was lost when we became D/s. Yet something was gained.
It took courage to say what I said: about how when I 'get' somebody I want to leave. How when I have left them I want to go back. How when I am with someone I want to be with someone else. How three will probably be the onky way to ficx this.
He talks. He says the same in slightly different words. He says I am a handful.......I cry. He says it is amazing how you can go from tears to submission and from submission to sex..
He says he is afraid in case this means that he is giving his power away but he misses me. Thanks me for the time we had together. Calls me baby and asks if I am ok. I say stuff but now I cannot remember what I said but he said that I was making it sound almost spiritual.....and that I know him better than anyone........he asks what do I need and I say I cannot ask you for what I need because you say you don't do that. He says that's right I said I don't do commitment. I said I refuse to talk to you about commitmen and that I was going to ring off soon....he tells me what he is doing this evening and that he wants me, he wants to take me out to dinner, he wants to hurt me, he wants to come here again as he loved the meal I cooked. He says no-one understands why you need to be hurt more than I do and yes it was a conversation about understanding how unless I am hurt I do not feel anything and a tunbling of those lil old sadistic things he likes to do......then we say goodbye and goodbye baby slowly and I am happy and I don't know why but it seemed to have added something rather than to have taken it away.
I text to say commitment is like breathing....despite ourselves we simply have to do it.....something was gained........
< Message edited by Prinsexx -- 12/22/2007 5:22:00 PM >
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RE: Lost (or gained) in translation? - 
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