ErusDespicienta
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ORIGINAL: DanesWood quote:
ORIGINAL: ErusDespicienta You have to be kidding!!!! Someone told you BDSM is an open minded, tolerant, non judgemental group, didn't they ??? and you listened !!!! We've had this discussion in person, and in general I agree, considering this is about personal choice there are far too many who try to decide what the rules are, too keen to label things. The things you and I have discussed make what's been posted in this thread so far look like beginners play, yet we both know that it's not, everything is relative. I for one try not to judge others nor pigeon hole anyone into a particular role, although this can be difficult at times. Now this thread was started to discover what extremes people are into out there, Hmmmmm. .you're daring Me, aren't you? lol OK. Here's my deal with the BDSM world. .accept what is written here as it is written here. .No one says you have to do it, or like it. We are SUPPOSED to be individuals, free to make up our own minds about what is good for us !! In the past I have done things that I didn't do again even though I had fantasised for months over them. I have done things I loved, having never fantasised over them all because someone shared the idea with me. I believe in ..Risk Aware Consentual Kink .. If I had to use Safe Sane Consentual, I'd get nothing done , it's the sane part that gets me every time lolol. I'm not here to justify my actions nor will I.....I AM FULLY RISK AWARE. Rapture I see you have lots of fetishes. You have a lot in common with me. .I discovered water sports early on and quickly it led to medical play, especially catheters. Perhaps my biggest failing is that I get bored quickly but that trait makes me a constant explorer and limit pusher. Eventually I began combining my basic fetishes. "Peeing on" graduated to "peeing into" and peeing into her ass after anal gives me the satisfaction of marking plus I love the stinging sensation in my uretha caused by the constriction. Inevitably " Peeing into" graduated to " Peeing into!!" After spending months sceneing with a Trauma Nurse we finally went and did it. Both of us urethally cathed and the caths linked, the pee flowed. it was glorious. (You might be able to adapt this into an age play, umbilical cord type of scene.) Now I have the catheter bug. . that leads to sounds. .utheral stretching which of course lead inevitably . .lol ..to The Prince's Wand . Now to have a Prince's Wand you need a Prince Albert. .OMG more fetish, genital piercings! Once I discovered what you could do with piercings everything changed. .Suddenly my play was all about ME . and I have been on a journey of self pleasure ever since. Controlling bodily functions is a big one for me. .Using breathing tubes, caths, and plugs on a submissive and having her rely totaly on me for relief is a high point for me .It's good for a w/e session and the things she will do to earn bladder relief or an extra breath are quite remarkable ( try stopping the flow of pee within seconds of letting it flow.. that usually gets a wide eyed look but not a sharp intake of breath, well, not unless you allow it.) As I scened more I started to realise that as much as the organisation, the knowledge and the mechanics were a thrill for me, there was something missing and yes. .I needed to feel, the subs were having all the fun ! I'm looking forward now to exploring myself more as a Sado masochists and not as a Dom/Top, which brings me neatly to DanesWood who's post I quoted at the beginning. I've made a friend in real time who's into body modification, it's taken years to get this far, who knows what the next few have in store ;) At some point everyone is a beginner in this and I understand that, I was once too. My exploration will never end. Scat play is not a hard limit for me. .I have a long term friend, play partner who has said she wants to try it. .Maybe one day soon my curiosity will be satisfied and who knows. perhaps it will become a limit, perhaps not. I've set up a take down /gang bang scene. . Now I know what she got out of it , she told me but I still didn't get it.. each to their own remember. .What was in it for me? CONTROL and doing things that are intricate and edgy. .I had 22 rock hard guys I'd never met, one naked girl and no one to ask for help. .It went off smoothly and I learnt a thing or two about crowd control ! I did a knife scene a few years ago that involved vaginal penetration . .It seemed like it was all going wrong. .I just got the 4 inch blade in and told her to look between her legs. .this is the point where you DO NOT FLINCH. .I knew right way a reaction was coming, the reaction seemed negative, I was very familiar with sceneing with this woman and so I started a withdrawal. No sooner was the knife out than she fell apart emotionally, I did have a spotter and between the 2 of us, we brought her out of space and got her calm.. I really thought she had had a regression or something. .and I was glad to have a second woman around to help with the aftercare. .We didn't think it looked good.. she was mumbling and shaking. .it took a good 20 mins to get her calm. and finally when she spoke clearly " What the F**k did you stop for, that was f*** awesum!" You asked for the hardcore, the sick and the violent, well I'm not into violence, is there anything here that's hardcore or sick, if there is I don't see it.
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