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SusanofO -> RE: Could anorexia be a rational life choice? (9/4/2007 3:48:34 AM)
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I suppose if it wasn't a compulsion (as someone mentioned)- then it could be - but my impression is that it's not a "rational decision". I had it in high school. I am 5'6" and my weight went from 126 pounds (healthy for my height) to 93 pounds (way too thin) in about 6 weeks. I remember I was constantly thinking about food - I just never managed to eat any (or much of it, anyway). I was always baking cookies for other members of my family (I was obsessed with food, even if I wasn't eating it) and exercised at least 3 hours a day: Bike riding, swimming or aerobics. My mom used to be a part-time model, and she thought I looked great. She helped me shop for smaller-sized clothes, as I lost weight, and used to help me take my body measurements. I had a 21-inch waist-line (without a Corset!) I am not blaming my Anorexic period on my mother, though. I'm not. Because neither of us really even knew what was going on, at the time. This was in 1973-74, before this disease even had a name, and before Karen Carpenter (the famous singer) actually died of it. There were no "Treatment Centers" for Anorexia at the time. Nobody really knew what it was, back then. What I remember about that period in my life (and it lasted over 6 months) is that I wasn't really very aware I was doing anything harmful to myself - I wouldn't really call it a decision to participate in Anorexic behavior. It gradually abated as my family became alarmed when my weight got into the low 90's, and another year of school began. They'd watch me eat, and make sure I ate dinner, etc. My dad was particularly concerned. But I can still name, to this day, the calorie count in practically any food you could name. At the time, I just thought I was "dieting." BUT - My periods stopped happening, I became Anemic, and I fainted at my Summer job and had to be sent home (and also at a Swimming pool that Summer) - so I was definitely not living in a healthy way, at the time. Luckily (or not) for me today, my "batttle" is more often how to lose 5 or 10 pounds, than how to gain 25 pounds. But I'd rather live the way I live now. - Susan
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