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slavegirljoy -> RE: If YOU say humiliation (3/13/2007 10:09:35 PM)
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ORIGINAL: CreativeDominant
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ORIGINAL: SilverShadows
If YOU say humiliation
If YOU say you like humiliation in your profile, I would like to know what YOU mean by it. It’s not really relevant to me what others think YOU mean. I want to understand what YOU are trying to communicate.
In a BDSM/D/s context, I view humiliation and degradation as two separate areas. To me, degradation is making a person feel worthless and, as you called it, like a piece of trash. There generally tends to be no good progress or growth or sexual excitement that comes out of it. Humiliation does bring on sexual excitement and a feeling of being humbled through techniques such as name calling or exhibition of your submissive in public or private, etc.. They are usually difficult for the submissive to do and yet, exciting and embarrassing and arousing to her.
i view humiliation in the same way.
my Master doesn't use humiliation to degrade me or shame me. He doesn't humiliate me to punish me.
He uses humiliation to strip away the exterior facade of my prideful nature and expose my humility and vulnerability. He uses humiliation to allow me to see myself more honestly.
He knows what humiliates me and what doesn't. He knows that calling me names doesn't humiliate me. i like Him calling me names. He knows that putting me on display, for all to see, does humiliate me. He knows that i hate and fear the attention of being in the spotlight, but it excites me, too.
Honestly, i am something of an exhibitionist, but i am too shy and embarrassed to put myself on display. i need to be put there by another, who has control over me. He puts me in situations that will draw attention to me. He does this is different ways, such as making me sit for a caricature portrait at a large arts festival, where a crowd of people gathered around to watch, looking at me sitting there, with nowhere to hide. He has also made me take off my prosthetic leg and ride an electric wheelchair shopping cart through a large store, which always causes people to look at me, seeing the stump of my leg hanging there and asking me if i need help. He sees just how uncomfortable i am and my obvious feelings of humiliation immediately and He loves it. i just want to crawl under something and get out of there, but i have to sit and endure it and, then i always find myself feeling very sexually excited, at the same time.
i love humiliation, not stupid, pointless degradation, but thoughtful ways of humiliating me and keeping my ego in check.
slave joy
Owned property of Master David
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