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This is my first post on collarme. Im completely new to BDSM and have never been "owned". I do hope that y'all will be gentle with the newbie. I have been reading alot of the posts and have found soooo much information to help me along this new discovery. I do have another profile on here where I am searching for a Dom but maybe it's because Im chicken alil but I prefer chatting this way~at least until Im more comfortable with all this.
Ive been visiting this site for awhile now and trying to read up on things. I havent been to any of the munches or local scenes yet..waay too soon for me...Im just more scared of the unknown than anything. Im sure that if I did actually go to one Id be fine.
Everyone here seems to have soo much experience that I feel kinda dumb to give my opinion on things. How can I give an opinion yet? My only experience happened to me a few nights ago..and I feel like at times I wanna burst for wanting to tell someone. I just giggle all day at work about it. And I know that to all of You that have done all this for years are chuckling to yourselves..but Im just finding out who I am and experiencing things for the first time.
I recently have a new boyfriend. We've been dating for a lil over a month now. He's just so wonderful it scares me. He's not from CM and well, he's "vanilla" as far as I know. We havent really discussed this yet and I dont really know if I should bring it up or not..Im really vanilla myself but have been curious for a few months now to actually try things. Heck, I havent even done anal yet..
So, I was sick with the flu on Valentine's so my new friend and I postponed our Valentine's til Tues. the 21st., the day before my birthday. I had bought a cute new lil outfit I wanted to try out with him. I was shopping and came across a pair of high heels that I see on so many of the pretty girls on here and I decided to buy them. With them and my yellow babydoll outfit I wore some lil girl socks. I thought maybe I would slowly bring up about some stuff on here to him but man! when he saw the outfit he took it from there...I got my first spanking lol...so, maybe he's not so vanilla...(it was the first time I orgasmed with a Man inside me~ever) I havent told him that.He seemed to just do everything right. And I dont know if maybe it was just the right chemistry or maybe that Ive grown enough from reading things here to allow myself to enjoy Him..*shrugs
I dont know if it will work out long term with Him but he has me calling Him Daddy...and Im enjoying myself.
Guess I really wrote this to just say that all of you on here have helped me more than you can know. I so enjoy your humor and honesty. Im glad I came across this website for the learning experience. Its nice to know that after all these years that Im not crazy for thinking about things others consider not normal. None of my girlfriends "do" any of this stuff and the girls at work are old sticks in the mud and I thought for sucha long time that something was wrong with me. I had thoughts different from the other girls so I kept alot of things to myself. But then I found this site and Im not crazy. Im normal for me. And Im learning its okay to want to enjoy your sexuality. Its okay to want to enjoy sex and being with a man. People always made me feel like a freak.
So..thank You~all of You. Ive read thru profiles and articles..threads and have learned so much and well..I just feel like a big weight has been lifted from me.
Thanks for reading
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