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ORIGINAL: PONYSEEKER

I remember my first session.

"On your knees please!" ...... LOL
and I wont forget
"Thank you"
It was automatic and she had a weird look on her face after I said it ....LOL

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ORIGINAL: machinegunBANG

This has been a process.

i have been interested in BDSM, specifically D/s, since my adolescent years and have pursued this interest through communication with O/others that share the same interests as well as reading many online resources and being actively involved in online communities. Unfortunately i have yet to be involved in a true D/s relationship although this is not only a desire, but a deep internal need to serve that i feel within myself. My husband and i have "played" with some BDSM dynamics off and on during our marriage, but only within the last two years during which i have been discovering how serious my yearning to be submissive is has it become an every-day topic for discussion between us. Previously we had been practicing switch roles, with him always prefering to be the submissive. i was never satisfied in this situation and found myself more actively trying to please him by being dominants rather than gaining any satisfaction out of the dominate position itself. Eventually this switching ceased as i had to be very clear that it was not something that i felt comfortable, happy, or satisfied in doing.

In the past two months my husband has been studying D/s dynamics much more seriously because of my own interest in the subject and claims that he has discovered an internal 'Domliness' that he wasn't aware of before. After weeks of serious discussions concerning not only our own relationship , but also D/s relationship dynamics and how we'd both enjoy implementing these into our relationship we had decided that it would be beneficial for us to enter a contract together with him as my Master.

After stipulation of the contract as well as the signing i have tried to take my role as his submissive very seriously but find him offering a lack of direction. This was one concern that i had presented to him before entering the contract and felt was an issue that had been discussed and dealt with, but obviously had not. i have concerns that his position as a novice, combined with my own, will cause a failure in proper training and may have negative impacts on our relationship together.

Am i a poor submissive for feeling a need for direction from my Master or asking for that direction?

As a submissive, is there anything that i can do in order to elicit a more 'Domly' approach and response from my Master so that he may gain greater joy in having me serve him?
my own frustrations are growing and any advice would be appreciated. Thank Y/you for your patience and for taking the time to read this.