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RobertCloud -> RE: What Are You Thinking About? (3/30/2007 10:55:00 PM)
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I am thinking that just as things seem to be becoming wondrous... that as your dreams seem to be coming true for the first time in your life and you have finally found true happiness something comes along to sweep your feet out from underneath you and crush you.
The one you love may still be there and that dream may still be strong and growing, but everything else in your life suddenly has become a nightmare and been torn to shreds. That you suddenly feel worthless and wonder if the love of your life would be better off without you for you don't want to pull them down into your chasm with you.
That all the foundations of your other hopes have been ruined and destroyed in one fell swoop of a simple matter of one days timing. A letter arrived one day later to where it needed to arrive and now there is nothing that can be done for there is no help, there is no dreams left, there is no hope of salvation to save what little you had left. The only shred of decency you have left is your dignity and that is nothing anymore.
No... no pity... I seek nothing... I want nothing... I am just wondering why when I finally found everything in the woman I loved... everything else in my life had to go to hell so that now I feel like I am worthless.
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