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ORIGINAL: LittleGirlHeart

yes porn is ok. but we have a relationship agreement about porn and not watching it if he hasn't tried to give me sex or get me to orgasm. and when / if he just watches porn anyway and lies to me it's a slap to the trust we have and the faith i put in him. Which is the only reason it causes hurt feelings and mis trust. because we've gone through intimacy trust betrayal issues last year around this kind of thing.

Plus, it's really confusing if history says someone watched porn at 10:45 am and he was at work at 10:45 and i was not on the pc at 10:45 i wanna know why. if it's not him and it's not me. why?

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ORIGINAL: Blonderfluff


Hmmmm. Porn"MD".com? Curious. You sure it was no one in your house? Because, and I'm just thinking out loud here, but you've posted about a BUNCH of medical issues since 2008..... You are a grown up. Porn is ok!! Maybe you sleep walk.

Or. Your PC might be doing it.....~shrugs~

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ORIGINAL: LittleGirlHeart

That's just one particular instance of well if it's not u and it's not me what is it? because other times in the same day search the history is showing a bunch of porn and he claims its not his it's all times he was home and he swears he wasn't and he lied to me for 2 years on porn issues almost daily. and i caught him lying right to my face. so I don't trust him any more when he swears " on my grave on everything i hold dear it's not me"

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ORIGINAL: Moonlightmaddnes



I wonder on thing, you say it is causing trust issues due to past hurt, but then say he was at work at that time. So if he was not there why are you having trust issues with him?

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ORIGINAL: littlewonder

Your posts lately have been disjointed, and chaotic. Are you sure you are not walking in your sleep and creating these users and going to sites? It's most likely malware but if I were you, you need to really get some help. You are definitely not all there right now. I try to read your posts for the past week or so and it's extremely difficult.

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ORIGINAL: littlewonder

Your posts lately have been disjointed, and chaotic. Are you sure you are not walking in your sleep and creating these users and going to sites? It's most likely malware but if I were you, you need to really get some help. You are definitely not all there right now. I try to read your posts for the past week or so and it's extremely difficult.

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ORIGINAL: LookieNoNookie




Hon, he's a man...he looks at porn. That's what men do. And of course he's gonna lie to you because he knows if he admits it, he's in trouble.

So why don't you just check out his porn and find out what sets his brain on fire?

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ORIGINAL: littlewonder

Your posts lately have been disjointed, and chaotic. Are you sure you are not walking in your sleep and creating these users and going to sites? It's most likely malware but if I were you, you need to really get some help. You are definitely not all there right now. I try to read your posts for the past week or so and it's extremely difficult.

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ORIGINAL: Blonderfluff



OP. You were going to go to the doctor about your bruising issues. And also, your rapid cycling. Have You talked to ANYBODY in real time??

Advice. Stop worrying about the silly computer. Get off if it. Go get better.

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ORIGINAL: littlewonder

Peon, I don't think she has mobile capability that does that. She seems to be having a lot of issues according to previous messages she has started here.

And blonderfluff, I doubt Master has a problem with calling me mouse. I think he thinks it's cute.

LGH, go and see your docs in person. You need to see someone before you get out of control.

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She seems to be having a lot of issues according to previous messages she has started here.

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ORIGINAL: AthenaSurrenders

fr

I don't have any advice, but I'm sorry that you're having such a tough time lately.

That new photo you have as your avatar is nice btw.

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ORIGINAL: LittleGirlHeart

yes. i went and saw several dr's in real life it's how i know i have a bruised tail bone, and need a butt doughnut. i also figured out prolly how the hell o bruised my ass, it just didn't occure to me till like 9 pm the night i went to the drs. and even if it had, i wouldn't tell him. he doesn't need to know.


. and i actually went to the ER a couple nights ago cuz a migrain neck tension headache/ stress pain thing wouldn't get better an then i got food posioning ish symptoms and the nausia and the following retching so hard i convulsed made my head want to split open.


I will "worry less" about the computer when i understand why shit is showing up on his phone, and his kindle we did not put there. and when it's not making me distrust him and his actions. feeling like he is lying and i can not trust him* when he has honestly done nothing wrong* doesn't help my mental issues. it makes things worse. and i get very paranoid admittedly about him and his actions when i begin to believe i can't trust him* which in the last 2 years he has shown me i can not, in some regards* and no i can not just decide what ever..... i will let it go i trust you and if i don't who cares i'll let it go. i don't work that way. If i do not trust them completely that they're not up to something they say they're not i get veeeeeeeeeeeeery titchy about it.

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ORIGINAL: Blonderfluff



OP. You were going to go to the doctor about your bruising issues. And also, your rapid cycling. Have You talked to ANYBODY in real time??

Advice. Stop worrying about the silly computer. Get off if it. Go get better.

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ORIGINAL: LookieNoNookie

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ORIGINAL: LittleGirlHeart

yes porn is ok. but we have a relationship agreement about porn and not watching it if he hasn't tried to give me sex or get me to orgasm. and when / if he just watches porn anyway and lies to me it's a slap to the trust we have and the faith i put in him. Which is the only reason it causes hurt feelings and mis trust. because we've gone through intimacy trust betrayal issues last year around this kind of thing.

Plus, it's really confusing if history says someone watched porn at 10:45 am and he was at work at 10:45 and i was not on the pc at 10:45 i wanna know why. if it's not him and it's not me. why?

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ORIGINAL: Blonderfluff


Hmmmm. Porn"MD".com? Curious. You sure it was no one in your house? Because, and I'm just thinking out loud here, but you've posted about a BUNCH of medical issues since 2008..... You are a grown up. Porn is ok!! Maybe you sleep walk.

Or. Your PC might be doing it.....~shrugs~

I apologize.....that was me.....just send me the bill in PDF format and I'll pay it.

(Nobody's ever caught me before).

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ORIGINAL: Raijin

my ? for you is , are you receiving your internet via , a cable box, dsl or telephone line ...or are you getting it via Satelite/ or wireless proxy? if the latter 2 I'd be for purchasing a better firewall, and router, the issue you are speaking of sounds more like a neighbor in your neighborhood is tapping into your wireless connection for free internet traffic

~or~ plausible issue no.2

have you or your SO ever done Remote pc data logging/ basically you leave your pc on at home and goto work and log in via remote link and control your home pc from work, i use this tool for helping other clean up their pc's while they sit at the desk and watch , its a great tool to teach pc users how to enable and safeguard their systems

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ORIGINAL: angelikaJ







So, he never takes his phone or kindle to work?
edit: typo

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Plus, it's really confusing if history says someone watched porn at 10:45 am and he was at work at 10:45 and i was not on the pc at 10:45 i wanna know why. if it's not him and it's not me. why?

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ORIGINAL: LittleGirlHeart

yes. but these times are when he would be at home. and he cant watch porn at work. he's in a kitchen all day doing prep around others. or on the road to a delivery in the company car. he wouldn't be irresponcible enough to load or watch porn at work, or while driving.

There's a small chance, or at this point a really big chance i am just being un reasonably parinoid. the definition of pychotic or a pychosis is an irrational beliefe that something is going on that others do not believe, you believe it falsely or, your mind is playing tricks on you.


Has he given me reason to believe he's up to no good, yes. is he i don't know. i used to often wake up convinced he's lying to me check around and realize I was dreaming or confused sometimes.

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ORIGINAL: angelikaJ









So, he never takes his phone or kindle to work?
edit: typo

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ORIGINAL: angelikaJ

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Plus, it's really confusing if history says someone watched porn at 10:45 am and he was at work at 10:45 and i was not on the pc at 10:45 i wanna know why. if it's not him and it's not me. why?

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ORIGINAL: LittleGirlHeart

yes. but these times are when he would be at home. and he cant watch porn at work. he's in a kitchen all day doing prep around others. or on the road to a delivery in the company car. he wouldn't be irresponcible enough to load or watch porn at work, or while driving.

There's a small chance, or at this point a really big chance i am just being un reasonably parinoid. the definition of pychotic or a pychosis is an irrational beliefe that something is going on that others do not believe, you believe it falsely or, your mind is playing tricks on you.


Has he given me reason to believe he's up to no good, yes. is he i don't know. i used to often wake up convinced he's lying to me check around and realize I was dreaming or confused sometimes.

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ORIGINAL: angelikaJ









So, he never takes his phone or kindle to work?
edit: typo

sorry yes. 10:45 he would not be home. and the other 5 he was home. in fact today it said someone watched porn monday at 6 nd i know he didn't.

You say in the part at the top that he wasn't at home... ?

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We'll fight, not out of spite
For someone must stand up for what's right
'Cause where there's a man who has no voice
There ours shall go singing

(in reply to angelikaJ)