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ORIGINAL: Aswad

Not everyone wants to go where the river takes them, Duskypearls.

For some, it is indeed better to perish than to end up where the river is currently headed.

For others, those can be words of wisdom, indeed.

IWYW,
— Aswad.

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ORIGINAL: GreedyTop

(dammit, will you get outta my head?  at least until we get baseball bats LOL)

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ORIGINAL: Aswad

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ORIGINAL: GreedyTop

(dammit, will you get outta my head?  at least until we get baseball bats LOL)

No can do. It's too cozy in here. Hope you don't mind if I redecorate a bit.

IWYW,
— Aswad.

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ORIGINAL: Aswad

It's supposed to feel like a crap shoot, as far as I can tell.

Interesting times are what I was born for, Duskypearls.

I've always known I won't die in bed of old age. For me, a pool of blood in terror and agony is a more likely prospect, with few regrets beyond things left undone and people left behind. It is what it is. Had I been born centuries earlier, I would've left my bootprints on the British Isles and the coast of Normandy, I figure.

This world, or what it's becoming, is not for me.

Norway least of all places these days, which is sad, as this is where my heart is at: the land of my forebears, the Blight, which they made their home against all odds. Or, more precisely, Western Norway, which still remembers some of its history and roots, but is forgetting under the encroaching, corrputing influence of Eastern Norway.

A Brave New World is a more evocative image of Hell than anything Dante could conceive of.

Come to think of it, so are all utopias I've heard of.

IWYW,
— Aswad.

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ORIGINAL: Aswad
This world, or what it's becoming, is not for me.

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ORIGINAL: Duskypearls
In terms of what I've bolded, in the last week or two, I feel as tho' I'm no longer completely "here," on the planet, as it were. Much is changing; vision/energy (diminished), pain levels (greatly increased), passage of time (speeding up and slowing down), perception/interpretatiion shifts, ability or willingness to care for or help others (greatly decreased) who are not already light or moving towards the light, much more sleep is required and has finally come to me, after lacking it for 37 years, dreams are coming fast and furiously almost from the moment my eyes close till the moment I wake (also after 37 years of their absence).

It's almost like I am partially in another dimension. That which mattered before, no longer matters. It seems I have little to spare. Perhaps it is pendulum finally finding middle ground. I used to over care/over feel for far too many. Now I undercare for most. I feel it is protecting me, and feel no guilt about it.

I sense people are being deeply changed whether they know it or not, towards either the light or the dark. I sense many are being put to sleep, or are more disconnected and are becoming more dangerous.

I know not what it all means, whether it is good or bad, or what the final outcome will be for me, or the grand scheme of things. All I know is I'm doing my level best to ride out this bronc. I only wish this was all happening when I was younger, stronger, more resilient, as surely I'd feel less vulnerable. I feel there is nothing solid beneath my feet, and all I can do is hope and pray I will know what I need to know, when I need to know it. Truth be told, I feel dismally unprepared.

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ORIGINAL: Duskypearls
"We are the ones that we have been waiting for".

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ORIGINAL: Rule

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ORIGINAL: Duskypearls
In terms of what I've bolded, in the last week or two, I feel as tho' I'm no longer completely "here," on the planet, as it were. Much is changing; vision/energy (diminished), pain levels (greatly increased), passage of time (speeding up and slowing down), perception/interpretatiion shifts, ability or willingness to care for or help others (greatly decreased) who are not already light or moving towards the light, much more sleep is required and has finally come to me, after lacking it for 37 years, dreams are coming fast and furiously almost from the moment my eyes close till the moment I wake (also after 37 years of their absence).

It's almost like I am partially in another dimension. That which mattered before, no longer matters. It seems I have little to spare. Perhaps it is pendulum finally finding middle ground. I used to over care/over feel for far too many. Now I undercare for most. I feel it is protecting me, and feel no guilt about it.

I sense people are being deeply changed whether they know it or not, towards either the light or the dark. I sense many are being put to sleep, or are more disconnected and are becoming more dangerous.

I know not what it all means, whether it is good or bad, or what the final outcome will be for me, or the grand scheme of things. All I know is I'm doing my level best to ride out this bronc. I only wish this was all happening when I was younger, stronger, more resilient, as surely I'd feel less vulnerable. I feel there is nothing solid beneath my feet, and all I can do is hope and pray I will know what I need to know, when I need to know it. Truth be told, I feel dismally unprepared.

Do you have a chronic or recurring disease? (You may choose to answer me on the other side.) Yes, I have several. They are quite debilitating, and no fun at all. I am fortunate, tho', for no one who meets me will ever have any clue this is the case, unless I choose to share it with them. In fact, they will perceive me as quite strong and functional, and I will be, in their presence. I will only let my guard down, my vulnerability and the truth show, with those I feel can be trusted.

Another issue is being the empath. Without knowing the illnesses, injuries or symptoms of others, simply being in their presence has caused me to suddenly acquire what they have, including things like diabetes! I have learned to become a bit better at discerning mine from theirs, and will often ask, "Have you a bulging cervical disc, a migraine, acid reflux, diabetes..." or whatever else sudden pain/symptom/illness I'm suddenly overwhelmed with. I just need to learn how better to block this stuff, for I've got my hands full enough with my own crap!

You may be ascending or already have ascended. If that were true, why in the hell am I still here, and having to go through all this crap?! The doubts, the questions, the not knowing, etc., is so destabilizing.

Be confident! Yes, that is the goal.

Never mind what is beneath your feet: You are the one solid anchor in the universe. All else relates to you for their feet to rest upon. Believe that. You may be right, but more often than not, it is I who feels the need for an anchor, or someone upon whom I can rest. I have never had that, and would love to know what it is like.

You are sweet, kind, and ever so smart, Rule. You ALWAYS stretch my mind and make me think further than I might have on my own. I know there are many who neither understand nor appreciate you, but you can be sure I do. I have a slight clue just lonely you are, in your role. You have not chosen an easy path, this time around. I only hope you are amply rewarded for it in a way that is of value to you.

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ORIGINAL: Duskypearls
If that were true, why in the hell am I still here, and having to go through all this crap?! The doubts, the questions, the not knowing, etc., is so destabilizing.

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ORIGINAL: Duskypearls

Truth be told, I feel dismally unprepared.

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ORIGINAL: Rule

The world is what you make it, Aswad.

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Are you a mover or are you someone being moved by other people?

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I think that you can join the secret groups that have been pulling the strings of the world these past couple of centuries - even for millennia they claim themselves.

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Or alternatively you can set up your own organization.

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ORIGINAL: Rule

but there are too many of us.

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What we are awaiting is for the bulk of humanity to change into the omnipotent superman that was created so long ago.

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I personally know only one such person.

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ORIGINAL: Kirata

~The Lament of Hermes