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Rhdsklr -> Dominant seeking partner (8/13/2012 2:24:27 PM)
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IF you really know me, or WANT to know me, then this title should make perfect sense.
I'm a dominant man, with a submissive foundation of that thought process who is looking for someone who can truly keep up. I'm an intelligent, opinionated, multifaceted man of the 21st century. I thrive in my workplace, flawlessly and brilliantly. Everyday I do what my soul and my heart want. I follow my God. And I love my life to the best of my ability.
Then I come home.to my house. I make dinner, for just me. I clean empty bedrooms. I watch a movie, read a book, cook dinner, write my endless thoughts or whatever i may have energy for that evening. This too i do with only my energy to entertain my ever craving personality.. I take a shower, alone. I crawl into bed, by myself. I sit by the fireplace feeding a flame knowing my desire is to not be alone but to share in these moments. I read or surf online. . . still alone. I tuck myself in and I fall asleep.hopefully sooner rather then later. My vivid and almost total recall of play partners who I adored, but for one reason or another are not here, only satisfies my hunger in brief thought. Then I wake in the morning and think, that would have been so much better had someone been with me. And then I do it all again. Let me make it clear. I'm not whinning. I'm not looking for sympathy, I'm just making it clear the pace at which my world moves at away from work.
I don't understand, am I really that awesome that no one even wants to try. hahahaha. just kidding of course, but not really. I have had offers, don't get me wrong. I hurt inside for not being able to seal the deal of a relationship with women who are past the age or not capable of child bearing. You may want to read my "honesty" writing next. My match may be a sub, slave or even like minded Domme, it depends on who the most appreciative one is that I am able to touch her heart with these words.
I absolutely appreciate the lovely women (and men) I have met. And am making some decently bound friendships in the process. I hope to spend more time learning and growing. Hopefully traveling and really experience BDSM for all the lovely things it has to offer. but by God I would so much appreciate having someone who could experience this journey safely, beautifully, freely, openly and comfortably with me. I think I have gone about as far as I can on my own and by myself. I feel like I'm at a cross roads and I'm not certain if I should try to keep going or just call it good and stop trying.
I'm looking. I'm looking for Genuine. Simple. Friendly. I'm looking for love. Here, there and everywhere. I'm looking for Spiritual and Honest. I'm in need of Kindness that seeps from your pores and Humility known because of a life lived well. I search and seek and patiently wait for you. My best friend. My dearest prayer. My most loyal of hearts. A mother to our children.
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