SoquilisGirl
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I found this site a few weeks ago (someone on Literotica mentioned it in a post), and I thought I'd check it out. I read several of the forum posts and liked what I saw, so I joined up. At the time I was involved with and subbing to a friend I've known online for about 5 years and we were talking about getting together in RL to see what kind of relationship we might form. I joined up here and was flooded with more messages than I could read, let alone answer. It was overwhelming, but there were several messages that were just friendly hellos and welcomes and they outnumbered the ones from the idiots who were all, “If this doesn’t workout, email me.” (As if.)
Anyway, also at that time I was in the midst of ending a long relationship with my boyfriend (Soquili). We had lived together since 1997 and things had gone steadily down hill for the past few years for a number of reasons. I am selling the house we live in and had asked him to move out. When I told him about my friend Crimson and that he wanted to collar me, Soquili kind of just broke down and opened up to me completely in a way he never had before. He told me that he figured he had nothing else to lose since he had lost me and he might as well just lay it all on the line and say, “This is who I am and this is what I want.” Now why he didn’t do this earlier I don’t know. Then again, neither did I, so we have no one to blame but ourselves.
Crimson was ok with the two of us still having sex and was even ok with Soquili Domming me if he wanted to because Crimson knew that there was a lot he couldn't give me from so far away. Not wanting to infringe too much on Crimson's 'territory', Soquili chose age play, since that was something Crimson was not at all interested in, but was something that I really love. From the very first night we did that I knew that I couldn’t possibly continue with divided loyalties. I loved Crimson but this was something he would never give me. And with him living 2000 miles away and being married besides, the chances of anything developing in RL were nil. I felt horrible for days, wondering what to do and how could I tell Crimson that I wanted to belong to Soquili.
We exchanged a few painful e-mails and finally got to chat one day. I asked him to release me. Soquili refused to go any further until he knew I was free. To his credit, Crimson understood and although in pained him to do so, he released me from the promise I’d made him. Since that day (May 12 I think it was), I’ve belonged fully and completely and happily to Soquili. Depending on our mood he is either my Daddy or my Dom (sometimes both). It seems to work for us and we’re still figuring out all the nuances (which is half the fun). There are some days when I just want him to take care of me, spoil me, protect me, adore me, and love me like his little girl. Then there are days when I want the other side of him to come out and just use me however he wants. (He prefers those days, I think, but he says he loves being my daddy just as much as he loves being my Dom.) Before Soquili I had only had online D/s relationships (and only 2 of those in 12 years since I discovered D/s at all). One of them bled over slightly into RL because I got to meet my partner a few times, but I have never lived with my Dom before and have never been with anyone who I knew so well and who I could trust absolutely. We have been opening up to each other more than we ever have been and our conversations have stopped being about “you do this and it annoys me” or worse – sulking and not talking at all. Instead we tell each other everything, even the bad, scary, hurtful stuff that we never used to talk about. (And all the good stuff too.) My old user ID here was “Crimsons Precious” but I never posted and didn’t reply to the messages either because at the time everything was overwhelming. I deleted that account after Crimson released me and Soquili and I got “reunited”. I think I’ll be keeping this name for the foreseeable future. The cool part is that Crimson and Soquili have spoken to each other several times and are becoming friends. I’ll still meet Crimson as planned, but this time I’ll be going with my Daddy. Soquili wants to thank him for giving him this chance to have his little girl and I want to thank him somehow for being just who he is – a wonderful man who loved me enough to let me go. Soquili's Little One
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