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RiotGirl -> UpDate (5/11/2006 7:56:11 AM)
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Master's move -
He's being really great about it. He's doing everything in His power to make it easy on her. He doesnt tire of talking about, nor does He tire of hearing her fears or worries or concerns. Infact the other night she told Master that she just has a million "worries" floating around in her head associating with the move. He told her "lets hear it" she felt really foolish speaking about them and hearing them out loud she felt even more foolish. It was good to speak about them though. It helped in an odd sort of way.
Master had shared the reason for the move, but not the "goal" (the dollar amount He wants to save). He did the other day and wow, it helped alot. she asked if she could work towards that goal with Him, which He agreed! So now she can have a goal too! Goals are GOOD! this one has a plan of action laid out infront of her on how to get through this. she's more confident and secure in whats going on and can look forward to the time when He isnt living here with out saddness. she see's that time as a "bust your butt" time. she's going to bust her butt, get everything absolutely straight and do everything in her power to hold Master in her brain and in her heart at all times. she's a few plans for how to do that. she actually has a big huge plan for the whole time. Plans are GOOD! Plans, let her know "what to do" and she hates being confused or not uncertian.
So she can cope much better with it, but the actual "move" she's absolutetly dreading. ug! she wishes she could just fast forward time to when He's not living here already so They could just get on with it. Master's actual move, is going to be tough tough tough. Just watching Him pack has her crying. she wishes she could sleep through the packing and moving out. Wala! Close your eyes and then open them and the everything is done!
Still hard of course, with moments of doubt when it comes to the whole thing, but only moments. Generally she has other things to focus on and she's feeling much more confident! she can do this. she can do this well. In college, she generally gives no effort and usually gets a B (randomly A's) so she knows that if she puts *effort* into something she can really do well.
Master is helping her so much with this. He is so making it as easy on her as He can! this one really really really appreciates it. He's entrusting some of His most prized possession with her to care for during the seperation. she of course would like to keep EVERYTHING that is His here <grins> but know thats impossible.
she appreciates everyone here on collarme, helping her get through the first few days after she found out Master was moving out. As you all know it was really hard for her to cope with and she really really appreciates you all being there. Thank you so much!!! she 's updating everyone so yall can know she's doing better and coping better with the situation.
Tomorrow, Master is taking most of His stuff out of here. Sunday is His last day "here"
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