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Termyn8or -> Job related rant - taking opinions (4/23/2011 5:26:17 AM)
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This really comes down to just how much balls do I really have. I had plenty of balls in the old days, and sometimes lost. I would quit at the drop of a hat if I felt like it and I've gone alot further than that. But out of all the places I've worked, I left most of them on good terms.
An incident happened Friday which is on my mind and with things having changed, I don't know if I should persue my normal course of action. This unit screws up cold. It had THREE other problems which have been taken care of. First of all it was hit by a power surge while running, which is BAD. I took care of it and then found problem number two. Problem number three is what's called a coolant change and I don't do that. They have the kid do that, which he did last week sometime.
Now I never saw this problem, it was completely up and running as far as I knew. But this is a bad problem. There is a $325 board it needs. I think I might be able to correct the problem in software but I can't get on the internet to get the information because idiots fucked up the network. The problem might be caused by long term drift, although long term isn't that long. It does happen. It might just be adjusting one parameter.
So I go and tell the boss, and he says he already had lunch. I asked WTF does that mean and he said he is not swallowing it. Well that can only mean one of two things, either that he doubts my technical ability or thinks I am lying. It can only be one or the other. I am on the verge of making a decision. This will probably involve quitting.
Not to worry, I have quit jobs before and my phone eventually rings. Eventually might be a problem right now. But like in a poker game, you bet the game not your pocket. This is imperative. But in these economic times the odds have changed I think.
So this turns into him shouting. I only mildly raised my voice because the ambient level of the sound of his screaming like a broad made it necessary. He yelled louder than I've ever heard. I understand that he's been in this game too long and is burned out, but I have my limits. I have a long fuse, but he doesn't want any part of what it is connected to, but he doesn't know it.
The last altercation involved him bitching about money, we had a few things go wrong. He even called me a few names then. He is not all that smart really. My case is easy, if I lie, why does he trust me ? If I am incompetent why have I been there for over six years ? I'm on terra firma when it comes to that and I am pretty sure that I am going to pull my tools out of there Monday, or maybe even today. But do I quit or just show ? Last time he got into this he wound up apologizing and things have gone smoothly since, up until yesterday.
I have said for a long time that to win you have to willing to lose. But now the stakes have changed. How long before my phone rings the second time ? See I don't answer the first time. Sometimes I do but I say "Oh, I was on the other line, otherwise I wouldn't have picked you up". That is about the equivalent of turning the knife around after stabbing someone. I've only done it a couple of times.
Now I won't claim to never lie, but I avoid it like the plague. I WILL NOT lie about a technical matter in my field because that is the core of my worth. I know this, and so does a former employer who seems to be willing to hire me back as of sometime next week. Both jobs are part time, and have been for a long time. The old job is a ballbuster, there is no fucking around. But then when there are problems that are hard to resolve they cooperate, they don't whine and bitch. This fuckhead, I walk in there and say "We have a problem" he whined like a little bitch. Very unbecoming to say the least. At the old job which may become the new job, they would want details, and I would provide same and we solved the problem. Not here.
Here we have a guy, if I were to describe him objectively - He is an Austrian DP with a small man as well as a Hitler complex. Bitching about this and that, fronting off customers, it's surprising that he even got to the level of success he had. But that is not the point right now, I must consider this carefully.
The economy sucks. Business sucks because people have no money, I understand that. What's more I have to have real bills now that the house is mine and I'll be damnned if I'm going to lose it. It ain't much but I am comfortable here. Renting is not my style. Even so, this is cheaper than renting anyway. Of course I could rent it out but it would take me a at least a year to move out, literally.
There is a fly in the ointment, the fucker is ready to retire. There is a chance that I'll be able to take over the business. Lots of problems involved with that but I think they're managable. If I sever ties now, that possibility will be gone. Also, even the old job (the new new job) is not going to be a lifelong thing unless I move because it is 23 miles away. If I wanted to move I have places I could live practically for free, but this place is MINE. That's alot to give up, and if I lose that's what will happen eventually. It doesn't matter if I rent it out, if I do I certainly can't live here at the same time. Plus renting is a pain in the ass. We tried it and it left a bad taste in our mouths (figuratively of course). Evictions, and then some. Fuck that.
So to keep the place at least the taxes and insurance have to be paid. I can do enough side jobs for the rest of it, but I don't like doing that. I might have to.
I know a hell of alot of people are in worse shape, but dammit, why should I give up. You have to understnd that I will not put up with this shit from someone who has been out of the technical end of this as long as I have been in it. This shit wasn't even invented nor even concieved when he went to school.
I am not angry, it would be like being angry if you lose a game. It is stupid and childish. But I WILL NOT put up with certain things, especially when I am in the right. (yes, especially) And I am sure I am right in that this shitbag is NOT my fault. I am not sure I can fix it in software, that is an ifcome based on an assumption. I could find out if his cunt and other employees had only used the computers for business and they worked, but that's not how it is. They got porn and email, and he doesn't fucking care. They call him over to see a cool vid or a porn picture. He's as bad as they are.
And all this in light of the fact that I was very productive Thursday. One of the jobs was a comeback, which means little or no money, but the rest were fine. The come back, I might as well bring this up. There are two identical parts with a very high failure rate, they dissipate alot of heat and are pushed to the limit.
Well originally when the comeback was fixed we only had one of these fast moving parts in stock so I determined which had failed and replaced it. I would've replaced both but we didn't have enough. It's not my fault that he can't get it together to get the materials we need to do the job. One job was fairly easy (for me), and on another we found that the part was very hard to get but I knew where we had a good one, used. Get used to used parts, that's all there is most of the time. Another was someone else's fuckup, which I fixed. Probably made the company close to a grand. I got a hundred and whatever. If I was the boss I think I would be happy with that.
Well he doesn't seem to remember that, but he is going to remember this. You have to understand that I am willing to lose, even go live under a bridge. That won't happen because I have too many friends. But still I would like to maintain my style of living, you know, like in my house.......
NOW, here is the kicker. If the new (old) job pans out, I am pretty sure I can bring his old customers there after the demise of this place. In fact I am damn sure I can do that. And that place can handle it, I know because I taught them, and they will freely admit it and in fact have done so in writing. It's not that they owe me, but we know each other and know how to work together. This fuck works apart. He doesn't want the details and nothing is ever his fault, even though things for which he is responsible go unfinished. The other place accomodates one to make them money.
He was yelling that he takes care of his end, and despite the fact that it is a bald faced lie, I didn't respond. YET.
I don't know quite what to do. I am not whining here, but I am unsure of exactly what path I should take. I WILL assert my WILL, nobody is going to talk me out of that. But I might be faced with the choice of working far away or going into business for myself. The former could work for a time and finance the latter. I have my tools, a scope and a few meters as well as a laptop with tens of thousands of bucks worth of technical info in it. All I need is a suitable vehicle and an ad somewhere. Right now I could go into direct competition and win, but it's a big pain in the ass.
Members of one professional website advised me to go into business for myself. It has it's advantages. One says he is making a decent living off of a ten buck ad in the local paper. I have looked into it and a ten buck ad in my local paper is not ten bucks. It's more like a couple hundred. Plus the fact that I believe they are price gouging, they do not have the circulation to support that rate. I could almost do better with those circulars with all the coupons, or even direct mail.
I would need a half decent minivan, I already can get a phone line just for business (I almost never answer my LL). I could borrow a minivan or SUV without much hassle. What's more even having the phone answered by a human wouldn't pose much of a problem.
But do I want this ?
T^T
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