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Missokyst -> How bad is the job market? (4/14/2011 1:29:44 PM)
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I have been doing computer repair for about 10 yrs now. I love this job because it lets me use my reasoning skills to their best advantage. I have rarely been bored and have made a decent living at this. All in all I would continue doing this for another decade were it not for one thing. I work for my x dominant. We have had ups and downs but usually it goes back to my doing the job I love.
I have adapted to his having a live in love. I have some casual relationships of my own which have made it easier to be a bit detached from the X, even though my heart has always been with him.
But, I think I have come to the end of the road. Recently I found out that he has an additional girlfriend apart from the live in lover that he plans to keep in the dark.
I knew that he had gone so far as to want to hire a woman for bdsm, but not that he had gotten a new girlfriend (by putting an ad up on craigs for an oral slave for a dom). I was detached enough to be somewhat amused at his inability to be honest with his current love. I might even have been ok with his having another woman in tow. If, he would just stop lying about it. If he would stop telling me how much he misses bdsm and how good I was. If he stopped thinking he was fooling me about his feelings.
I have grown tired of his thinking I am as much of a clueless fool as his girlfriend. Over the years we have told eachother everything. I was thinking of him as a friend, I thought he viewed me as a friend. But I realise now that what he told me early on in our relationship was true, men are friends with women because of what they might gain from it. At the very least it is true for him. And so I find myself thinking of going out in the work market for the first time in a decade.
I am scared. I have done this for a long time. I am too old to be hired as a tech for some of the big markets like best buy or guru's. I know I will never make the kind of cash I was used to making and I am ok with that. But my age is a hindrance in a tech field filled with college age kids looking for work. So I am thinking of retail again, but it has been so long since I had any experience with that work. I am not a secretary. I don't type like a demon. I need something with full time potential so I can at least get medical coverage.
So what kind of hardship am I looking at if I leave this job and set out elsewhere? How difficult is it to find a job when your most recent experience has been in something that has no bearing on the current field?
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