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tazzygirl -> RE: Respect in the morning (10/28/2010 8:30:04 PM)
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i have been thinking about this thread all day. many are inspiring posts... thanks catize, sunshine, Desi, and the rest who have shown a great deal of sensitivity in this matter. it all made me think about my own purpose in this walk of life. perhaps i was meant to be that with him, allowing him to open up the possibilities of his own sexuality. perhaps it was not meant to for me to be the one he truly explores this side of himself with.
on one hand, i saw it as a huge sign of trust, his opening up his darker side to me. for some, including myself, there are areas of our sexuality that we dont show to everyone. maybe its fear of being judged, rediculed for what turns us on. maybe its an inability to face it ourselves, regardless of how others may feel.
annie... you are new, so i will be gentle. i didnt give enough information, deliberately, to allow anyone to judge his ability to dominate me, or for anyone to judge him as being a wannabe. i can assure you he was, and is not. he is a kind, caring man who didnt have the ability to face his inner desires alone, and, to me, was afraid to share them with anyone else. i stumbled upon it one night. i exploited it, much to his passionate delight during the light of the moon, and his seeming shame in the light of day. i never judged him as being less of a man because of it, and i still cherish the memories of it now.
many of you have helped me see that, while it was his own embarrassment/shame/denial that made him unable to respect me afterwards, i can feel secure in my knowledge that my efforts were not scorned, but his own inability to handle his own emotions.
thank you all.
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