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porcelaine -> RE: Filming/being filmed (7/19/2010 1:54:36 PM)
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ORIGINAL: perfectflaw00
Recently i have been shooting with a few bdsm websites that i've met through collar me and every time it has been a positive experience. My question to those who have been filmed/done filming is it more about having a sexual desire fulfilled or do you simply really enjoy the process itself. If i had gone to my past self and told him he would be doing bdsm porn his head might have exploded then and there, but for me it seems that i really have actual fun when i do these shoots almost akin to going on a roller coaster or going to a party with a bunch of friends I must say it was a pleasant surprise for me because initially i thought it would be a purely sexual exercise in and of itself. Just wondering what others think of the whole dynamic, thanks.
perfectflaw,
I love questions like this. They allow me to see where my head is at and how far I've fallen down the rabbit hole. I've had this discussion in the past with someone I was involved with. Now what he wanted was way beyond what you're doing. And he was honest about wishing to film and sell the footage for profit. No matter what my nether region might tell me is amusing, I have commonsense and didn't need to post myself on that site. It would come back to haunt me big time. Needless to say I said no. But the idea was appealing in all truth.
Which brings me to the here and now. In a perfect world or one filled with a commitment to lying to myself because I don't like the answer, I'd say no way. But the response is in deference to my station and I have some pretty fixed ideas about slavery, especially when it involves yours truly. I view film and photography along similar lines and I don't find either abhorrent. In fact, I'd go on to admit that it's unlikely I'd resist my owner in that manner. In my mind I've made the right choice in partner and selected someone that can make reasonable decisions that wouldn't compromise me in a negative fashion. The reason I enjoy questions such as these is because they present the what if that people really don't want to think about, but I prefer to face the music myself.
Much like you I've discovered that the discomfort and other feelings I assumed I'd have about revealing myself in that manner were overblown on my end. In fact, I found it more challenging to do so when clothed than when getting undressed. I'm not certain what that says about me, or perhaps it merely reflects that it hinges on who I'm doing it for and with. I think the latter rings true.
~porcelaine
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