gungadin09
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Here i go, answering my own thread again... i suspect that when i was very young i understood myself far better than i did later on in life. When i was 5, i told my mom that i when i grew up i was going to move to Mexico to be a farmer. Looking back, it's suprising how close i came to predicting the truth. Although i never moved to Mexico, i majored in Spanish, and i now work in a field (cooking) that employs mostly first generation Mexican immigrants. Despite 20 years of schooling, i work a blue collar job. i do physical labor and work with food. Most of the people i work with are poor and have minimal education. Virtually no one has been to college, or has much experience dealing with ideas. i am very happy in this line of work, and to me it is much more satisfying than the white collar jobs i once thought that i wanted. My life turned out to be worlds apart from what i would have predicted at age 15, or even 25. i used to believe that we are born knowing nothing, and that the experiences of our lives give us more and more wisdom as we grow older. i now think that it might be the other way around. Maybe we come into this world with a true knowledge of who we are, and the experiences of our youth only confuse us and draw us away from that path, until we become "lost" and have to "rediscover" ourselves. i know it sounds cheesy, but i'm reminded of Dorothy's line from The Wizard of Oz, where she says that she had to go on a great journey only to discover what she had all along. i believe that my life has been like that. It took me almost 30 years to re-learn what i already knew at age 5. pam
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