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PeanutTigerinBox -> RE: do you recognise yourself as a child? (7/1/2010 4:25:29 PM)


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ORIGINAL: myotherself

I've changed a hell of a lot since childhood. I was a very shy, introverted child with very little self-confidence. I was always the school 'swot' and cursed with glasses, a podgy bod and a very pretty elder sister.



I also changed a heck of a lot....but that because I had to....my parents tried to raise me very submissive, just to be their family donkey...they still have the serious belief that our family doesn't have problems, only other people have problems....not realising what my brother and I went through with their attitude (we both played up big time as teenagers, in different ways.)

Due to the fact that my parents are people who try to keep any potential problems or issues underneath a carpet I had to learn to look after myself much faster than I should as at some point certain people started to take advantage of it. therefore at some point I reached the point that I knew I can't rely in any way on my parents...because if they know about problems I get told I woudl be lying, if the police wanted to talk to me I was accused of having done something wrong despite that they wanted to talk to me as a potential victim, and if it could be seen that I was physically hurt from a so called professional they still didn' t take any action against that bitch.

Therefore at some point I became very dominant and assertive and could not have bothered less about what my parents thought about me.

I can see myself in my pics, yes. But I struggle at times to see myself at those pics knowing that my life would have turned out very different indeed if my parents would have done their job properly!




Toppingfrmbottom -> RE: do you recognise yourself as a child? (7/1/2010 4:32:55 PM)

My personality has some what changed drastically, in that now I am seeking to be a child again, and experince a second child hood that's healthy, unlike my first. I'm an age player and I am a daddies girl, and I am very coddled. Some of that isn't a very big change from my original child hood either, but as a child I was eager to grow up and now I am eager to "grow down, and regress and be partly a child again."

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ORIGINAL: gungadin09

or has your personality changed significantly since then?

pam




kdsub -> RE: do you recognise yourself as a child? (7/1/2010 9:05:27 PM)

Thanks for the pics Level...made my day




gungadin09 -> RE: do you recognise yourself as a child? (7/3/2010 12:12:47 PM)

Here i go, answering my own thread again...

i suspect that when i was very young i understood myself far better than i did later on in life. When i was 5, i told my mom that i when i grew up i was going to move to Mexico to be a farmer. Looking back, it's suprising how close i came to predicting the truth. Although i never moved to Mexico, i majored in Spanish, and i now work in a field (cooking) that employs mostly first generation Mexican immigrants. Despite 20 years of schooling, i work a blue collar job. i do physical labor and work with food. Most of the people i work with are poor and have minimal education. Virtually no one has been to college, or has much experience dealing with ideas. i am very happy in this line of work, and to me it is much more satisfying than the white collar jobs i once thought that i wanted. My life turned out to be worlds apart from what i would have predicted at age 15, or even 25.

i used to believe that we are born knowing nothing, and that the experiences of our lives give us more and more wisdom as we grow older. i now think that it might be the other way around. Maybe we come into this world with a true knowledge of who we are, and the experiences of our youth only confuse us and draw us away from that path, until we become "lost" and have to "rediscover" ourselves. i know it sounds cheesy, but i'm reminded of Dorothy's line from The Wizard of Oz, where she says that she had to go on a great journey only to discover what she had all along. i believe that my life has been like that. It took me almost 30 years to re-learn what i already knew at age 5.

pam




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