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wykkidesire2plsU -> RE: Why "daddy"? (12/21/2009 4:44:29 PM)
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At first, i gravitated to the Daddy dynamic. Something about it made my tummy tickle, i think it was because i could still be flirty and a bit of a baby. i felt protected and the figure of authority monikor made submission easier for me to display. Daddy's have unconditional love, Daddy's punish, Daddy's indulge, Daddy's protect, you want to pllleassse Daddy.
Then i found out someone very very close to me was molested as a child by her father. So i thought wtf is wrong with me? How can i condone that?? i ceased immediately and felt guilty if it ever went there. But even with all that, in the throws of passion, especially any "it hurts" passion, i would sometimes substitute the name Daddy.
Leaving it alone helped me because it forced me to communicate as a submissive woman, and i rarely go there now. i still do sometimes, when feeling extra vulnerable, or sweet, or innocent or sleepy or playful. Also as i mentioned, sometimes when playing.
i thought about the molestation and do not feel guilty about it anymore, the key being consensual adult. When i do use it, he knows im in a playful or vulnerable mood and enjoys it, but neither of us do it very often. Sometimes though, it is very conforting to be His lil one.
Before i started seeing this One, i had a brief interaction with a guy who insisted on it, (and he was 8 yrs my jr, i did it sometimes with ex hubby and he is 10 yrs my jr).
At first i loved it too, but as i started feeling more and more "under" Him, i instinctively wanted to call Him Sir or M. (thank goodness he and i never got to the M part, that is another story and belongs on the "how naive newbie subs can be" thread :).
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