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pyroaquatic -> RE: I Admit It I........ (4/20/2010 2:29:56 PM)
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I admit that I am having a really bad day today. I've been attempting to establish a friendly rapport with one of the local ladies. She had just been in a relationship and it ended. I was not expecting any kind of reward. I had feelings for her but I wanted to be her friend first. But she is always 'busy' and 'broke' and experiencing heartbreak of her own design. Not only was I willing to pay, I was willing to work around her 'busy' schedule. Excuse, Excuse, Excuse of why we could not hang out. Finally, I called her on these excuses. There was a heated discussion. I asked her if she liked me. 'I don't dislike you, I'm just not attracted to you.' I told her I am not going to be a crying shoulder any more (she laments after every breakup). She had said 'Fuck Off' and I parted with Good Luck. We only met twice. The first time she was curious but nothing happened after that. The second time it was for her project (that pretty picture I had was her and her camera). She refused to give me the time of day even as a friend. So I blocked her from IM and Cmail (like she would ever initiate conversation). I'm tired of 'bothering' her which is why I blocked her. So now I am bummed out... for some reason. I mean she was not a lover, or even a friend. She did like rubbing in the fact that she had lovers and friends. now I am thinking bad thoughts. I want them gone but I keep obsessing. I admit it... I am not mentally healthy and I am afraid that because of that I will not have anyone. ~Pyroaquatic
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