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BKSir -> RE: I Admit It I........ (3/10/2010 9:47:02 AM)
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I admit it, I've given it some deep thought, and am very likely out of the Dom game for a good long time to come. At least as far as having a 24/7 live in D/S relationship. I admit that it's because, after nearly 3 years, my pet and my partner's secondary relationship (same person) has left our household and relationship seemingly permanently. I admit that although I'm confused and hurt as I still don't even know exactly why, that I hold no malice or ill will toward him, nor will I ever, because I freely and gladly admit that I do still and always will love him and cherish him more than life. I admit that's why I will likely not seek another pet for a very long time, if ever. I admit I know I would end up comparing anyone else to him whether I wished to or not, and that would be unfair for everyone. I admit that I am thoroughly and deeply wounded by this turn of events, and it will hurt for a long time to come. I admit that the silliest little things are setting me off and making me break down now (who knew seeing something like hot pockets in the store, which he loved to have and we got for him could make someone need to go to the car and cry for a half hour?). I admit that, no matter what, I know I am still loved, and no matter what pain I may be feeling right now, I know it will lessen over time and I will live, I will carry on, I will learn and grow from this and I will hopefully become a better and stronger person in the long run. EDIT: To Add: I admit that it's going to take more than this to get rid of me though. Yeah, that's right, you poor saps are still stuck with me. I feel I still have a lot of knowledge I can share here, and moreso, that I have a lot of knowledge I can gain from here.
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