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Phoenixpower -> RE: I Admit It I........ (12/26/2016 8:45:41 PM)
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ORIGINAL: Lucylastic Ive got my big gurl panties on, but I miss him already:) He is starting chemo today so at least he is not being screwed around and having to wait. Tomorrow we will be with him at least part of the day. Phoenix, I hope all goes well with your birthing:) Im excited for you(my eldest was due jan 7th(she didnt arrive till the 22nd but the christmas before she was born was magical:)) I admit I am hoping he does do a speedy and well recovery from this awful disease...you two are in my thoughts... I admit, thank you, our lil one will be delivered on 4th of january via cesarean vor different reasons...but we are fine with that [:)] I admit we had a nice final christmas as a couple, too...our only christmas ever as a couple actually, cause in recent years he went to his parents and I preferred to stay on my own (I could have joined him, but did not want to...)... I admit I decided a moment ago to sent my parents a very direct letter, together with the picture from our girl, once she is born... I admit the reason is, as my dad seriously gets me too much under my skin this year and I am not willing to take any more shit from him... I admit I was quiet for way too many years, but also he never behaved as badly as in the last 2.5 years, since we are living here...it seems, as happier I am as more he thinks he needs to put me down... I admit he asked me to get him 4kg of key rings from our local DIY store (a very cheap store) as he wants to create 2 chain shirts for his grandsons (they play knights, I think thats what you call them?! the folks in the castles...) I admit during 3 short calls between the time when he asked me to get that for him and when I got it finally, he behaved, but now that I got it for him, he behaves like the big fat arse towards me again....sort of, now he doesn't need to be behave anymore, as after all, I got it for him...so he can be a dick again...and now all I can say is "enough is enough"!!! I admit during my 4 years of relationship with my husband it always caused a lot of tension between us the weeks before my parents visited us until 1-2 weeks after they left us...as my father always keeps putting me down during his visit here like I am his worst enemy in his life...and my husband sadly is too nice to show my father the ropes...nope, he isnt a wimp...he just genuinly isnt used to such ugly behaviour within a family as it is between my father and myself... I admit I know that my parents will think those key rings will be a valid "reason" they have to visit us (after all, they need them, so they have to collect them)...well...nope... I admit I will post them their shit together with a picture from our child and a very direct unpleasant letter from me...therefore those key rings are no reason for them to turn up here!!! I admit that letter will basically tell them that I dont know anyone who is so negative and has so much a problem with it, about me being in a happy relationship with my husband, as he is (filled with lots of examples) and that this behaviour ain't tolerated here one more single time....therefore either behave or fuck off!!! pronouncing that I am not born to live the life he desires for me, but the the life I chose for me (he asked my husband last year to "treat me like crap", saying, that I would need that!!! accordingly he keeps behaving in such manners towards me...) I admit he destroyed with his attitude a fair bit both of our wedding celebrations this year, his attitude stank big time when we went on our honeymoon in august (because of which I couldnt enjoy it at all as it affected me through 2 of 3 of such weeks and we declared it in the end as a normal holiday...we will go again on honeymoon 2018...) his call on 2nd of christmas day wasnt appropriate now either (due to his attitude I showed him the ropes back because of which he finished the call after 45 seconds which even irritated my husband[:D][:D][:D]) and many ones in between, too... I admit therefore, he has no chance of reaching me on 31st of december or 1st of january...as I don't need more of his shit... I admit therefore, on 4th of january our UM will be born and about 2 days later we sent off the parcel to them with my letter and her picture and either he gets his act together in the future (which I doubt) or our contact will fall apart....I am on the point that I don't care anymore about contact...I am just not into his bullying shit towards me...and I firmly believe, that my awesome personal coach is spot on with his view, that my eating disorder stems from my awful relationship with my father...and I am not taking that crap anymore for sure... I admit I am very happy to let go of such unhealthy folks in my life [:)][:)][:)] I admit as we know on these board here....we simply cant chose in which family we are born...but at least we can chose, whom we have feelings towards to, like a family [:)]
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