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LittleGirlHeart -> RE: I Admit It I........ (2/2/2014 6:17:23 PM)
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the thing that hurts the most is i know how tob e there for her. but i am re traumatizing her and hurting her when my breat keeps breaking open and i keep loosing my gourd in front of her and i can't go away. i know shhe will have broken heart syndrome to, i saw it last time i went away. I'm being torn in two. and I am strong enough to do this but i am NOT strong enough to have all the stress i am going through and do this. my homes not ready for me to be a single disabled person it's a clutter4ed crazy mess and it's all we ever wanted was should we go south was for me to be ok with out him and i will. but i can't fight the world and grieve and im being asked to because of the timing. I actually know what's going on. i had the chest pains an stuff an it's a panic attack, i have taken a class on anxiety and panic and i am fortyunate becausee the firsd quote:
ORIGINAL: LadyRedRoseToo so sorry to hear of your hurt LittleGirlHeart, I remember the hurt when my long term relationship broke up 4 years ago. the hurt was literally physical. my ex fiancé accused me of being a drama queen. I actually had chest pains, ended up having to call the ambulance. found out there is actually something called broken-heart syndrome which explained the chest pains, pretty much a severe panic attack. and I thought it was just because I was nuts! so please take care of you, be gentle with yourself and know that if it's come to this it must be the best thing for you. time will help heal and gain perspective and maybe you will learn how to avoid this next time. for me it's come down to living my life to make me happy and nobody else. if I should happen to meet someone someday, great. if not, i'm still happy doing the things I want to do with my life. you and your pup will get through this together and be better off in the long run. tears and depression are fine now, but get out there and live! good luck!
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