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Prinsexx -> RE: signing up (5/13/2009 3:36:57 PM)
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ORIGINAL: lally2
do you think we consider the destination atall or are we people addicted to pushing ourselves and growing and ever changing. in which case then its a case of 'destination unknown' on pretty much every level.
lally.. i think you hit on it in the words you used there.
i've been married in Vanilla-land. i've signed a contract in Slave-land. i've signed publisher's agreements. i've signed an oath of secrecy (civil servant in the past). i've signed an ethical Code of Conduct. Each and all of the signings i have done were deemed to represent an end-game. i mean once married. Always married. Til death us do part. i sogned a slave's contract in my own blood for god's sake.
i still realeased myself.
There's something about signing up for a destination that kills the journey for me. i'll resist. i'll break the bonds that tie me. i'll run free.
What i'm saying is that the syrongest bonds are those that are invisible and those that are unfelt except by those who feel and see them in their hearts. My heart is now what binds me. There are no fixed rules, there is no signing in stone. The consent changes day by day, even hour by hour. And yes i consent to the changing, to the journey and have no heed of or need to know where the destination is.
On a spiritual level we are all headed for the same Destination anyway. That's the big D one. Other than that, i agree, the journey itself is all there is. And it'sa journey that for me has pushed all other destinations to its side, like little sign pots that say; marriage went that way, kids grew up, Paul, Peter, Mandy, David, Mr X and so on....
i long to have someone at my side when i pass, who will look into my eyes and simply say without words...i know and it was worth it.
It is worth it Lally. Whatever it is, it's worth it.
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