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InTonguesslave -> RE: point of departure (2/17/2009 8:04:23 AM)
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ORIGINAL: DesFIP
I'm curious as to why you have to become someone else, why you chose someone who doesn't like you the way you are now?
Changing me would require a great deal of work for very small changes. I found it better to find someone who enjoys who I am now.
hi DF-,
Sir enjoys my personality and has no desire to change me. who i am is a strong part of why he has chosen to take my submission.
what i am right now as the process of becoming his slave creeps into me, is chaotic, irresponsible, self destructive and undisciplined - its these things he wishes to change and i will be forever grateful to him for helping me - its no fun.
but also he wants to introduce things to me that are latent elements of who i am, such as whore, massochist and slave - i add slave as latent because ive only really considered myself fairly submissive at best and yet with him im finding that i welcome and am starting to respond well to the level of control he is exerting - so i am changing in that way, yes - but im open to it and we've talked about it alot.
but i also like to be challenged with new things, so for me, to accept new things for him is just fine. i trust him not to push me into something that would harm me emotionally or psychologically.
so it isnt about becoming someone else, its about building and developing from here and if i become someone else through a sense of greater confidence, self worth, focus and from a background of support then thats not going to be a bad thing. but it will still be from the roots of me -
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