pixidustpet
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damn what a topic to return to here on My re-entry to cm..I think I have a bit of expierience here in this..guess an explaination is in order..
I have been diagnosed with a rare bone marrow cancer and just getting the right diagnosis was a long time comming..at the time I first started the proccess I owned a girl..when the very first diagnosis came down the girl up and left telling Me I had no right to ask ANYONE to sit thru this...shortly after she had left the original Dx was resended and testing started anew..along came girl #2I had at this time stopped all testings and was just riding denial..well she talked Me into restarting everything ( had stopped cause I didn't wanna know) had known this girl for about 7 years.she said that she would love Me till death do us part....after I finally got the Dx of the rare bone marrow cancer she also walked saying the same basic things as the first...now mine you these were both girls with a LOT of real time expierience in the lifestyle and they up and walked..
thing is ...I can actually see why ...it would be a sheer hell and the worst torture ever to have to sit and watch the " Beloved Master " slowly die right before the eyes knowing there is not a thing they can do..so I guess I can see this from both sides of the coin...I would never walk out on Mine in such a dire time but I guess this shows that there are those that can't bear it out..
*nods* sept 2 years ago, fallcon was diagnosed with colon cancer. december 25th 2 years ago, he died. four months to the day that he was admitted to the hospital. it IS hell to watch someone you've loved dying before your eyes, having to become the Short Woman From Their Very Nightmares (which cracked him the hell up) to doctors to make sure he's treated right, to hold back your own grief enough to say "let go, dont hang on for me".
i dont fault someone who cant take it. this was twice in two years (nearly to the *day*) that i had lost someone dear to me. i *still* am raw with grief for both of them.
to the OP...how do you handle illness? you *do*. you love them, you care for them, you do what you can to make them feel better, you make sure they take care of themselves, you do the damned laundry (including folding it and putting it away) if necessary. you run the household. that goes for either side of the slash. or you find yourself on collarme.com only 2 months after your partner dies, dragging your feet and bitching under your breath as you post a profile, doing as you were ordered, to make sure that his last wishes were obeyed because he was worried about you being masterless in his absence.
it worked, too.
kitten, whose Engineer allows her to still grieve, knowing that it has nothing to do with her love for *him* and everything to do with her own silly soft heart and how much she loves at all.
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I have learned so much in the time we have been together. His treatment has changed several times, from peritoneal dialysis at home, to several bouts of peritonitis, to haemodialysis at a hospital and now doing it ourselves for the past 4 months. He's been through several surgeries and procedures and several hospital stays. 
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