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DisenchantedLife -> RE: Mundane life questions (12/6/2008 10:09:19 AM)
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Yes I agree. Thanks. I tell ya, coming to a place where there are multitudes of diverse thoughts and intellects has never failed. I've even figured out the source of my depression. Life is mundane and I am not a mundane type of girl. I have no excitment in my life and all I see is the same thing day in and day out. Gah, who wouldnt that depress? I am crazy and insane and I love excitement, yet I have none........ because I thought it the right thing to do? I dunno. But I've let my life become mundane and while a lot of people around me wouldnt agree, it is. We have our moments, but on the whole, its the same thing day in and day out. I think I've lost myself in motherhood. Which is okay, but I still need stuff for me. Probably why I end up in bad relationships actually. They're a challenge to try and fix and I love challenges. Don't mistake me, its not drama I like, but excitment. Drama equals bad, excitment equals fun.
I think if I could insert some excitment in my life I'd be able to master this other crap. I am probably focusing on all these other small things in my life, because there is nothing bigger to focus on. I'm nit picking at myself. I need to find myself, get myself going, get some proper excersize and all will be well. The interesting/excitment thing is going to be a challenge. Unless I decide to go tramping through a swamp or throw pebbles at an alligator to see if I can out run it............. i'm not sure where I am going to find some.
Atleast I know what my problem is and have a rough idea on how to fix it. Like I said, it never fails to come here and throw an issue out there.
anywho - thanks
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