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songlian -> Hello (11/20/2008 10:51:47 PM)
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Hi everyone. I thought I would start here. I was really intrigued when I browsed around.
a little about me...
When I was younger I was really into the D/s lifestyle and some of my fondest memories reflect back on that time. I met a lot of really cool people in person, and some bad. I learned a lot of lessons, one of which was learning, or having the courage to find out, who I really am. That's been a long and complicated road. It started out as me just being a very naive, very androgynous type of guy. I wasn't gay, I wasn't straight, I wasn't really anything but a mediocre musician with delusional fantasies of being a rock star. I was just carefree, lost, shy, afraid, a loner of sorts.
To make a long story short, I went from transvestite, happy and carefree, safe under the tutelage of a very good person and Mistress. Scening at dungeon parties on weekends, to full fledge transsexual in therapy and on hormones. After 9 years of hormones and many more lessons, I ultimatly realized I'm the same person I was years ago, except without all the confussion.
One question I'm asked alot by people that don't know me very well is "Have you had surgery?" That question always takes me by surprise. I'm Just a very androgyneous guy, yet neither male or female. Definately more on the fem side of the spectrum, but if you want to be technical, I supose I'm just a TG, no longer trying to trans from something to something else.
What does all this have to do with D/s?...
Well, the lifestyle that surrounded me back then was so accepting. there was no discriminating within the boundries of being safe. It gave me the courage to experiment which helped me to figure out who I was. Without it, I might have still figured myself out, but it would have been a much longer and ardous road. Or, I might have kept everything inside me surpressed and let society program me into being what I'm supose to be in so called normal eyes?
That's about it. I'm just here to hopfully make some friends, maybe learn new things and maybe get back in touch with a lifestyle I left behind a long time ago.
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