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DisenchantedLife -> Does it ever end? (11/5/2008 11:46:59 AM)
For the LOVE of God. I've been walking around saying that to myself for the past few hours and amazingly it does make me feel slightly better. Just crap after more crap after more crap after more crap. And then some crap. Does it EVER end. Omg. I had a friend driving with me today and she said "welcome to life" but by my calculations and life experience - there isnt always this much shit. Maybe I'm just spoiled? God only knows. Does it? Does it end? Can you actually get on top of the crap and manage to have some sort of maintence going on? It seems as if i solve one problem......... ANOTHER arises. And I am about ready to poop out. First i had an evil flue. Which i did muster through with the help of a friend in the evenings and my mother flew down for a day or so. The days were the roughest as I have two little ones. One little little one. We got through. The house was a mess. THEN I come down with an upper respitory infection AND my little little one comes down with some fucked up nobody knows what it is. We spend all week in and out of ER's as I try to politely explain to doc after doc that its not a viral infection. I get lectured that the number of a temperature doesnt matter and they cant do extensive testing on ALL kids that come in with high fevers. 104.7... no big deal. huh. W/e I still take him to doctors and ers. We spend our nights with me consoling him while he cried miserably for no reason, waking up with huge fevers and during the day going to doctors to no avail. Finally, (and i mean that sarcastically) a huge lump the size of a golf ball appears on his neck. So its a staph infection that's abscessed in his neck. Hospitalization, surgery to drain it, etc. It was rough on my little guy and knowing that it could of been prevented........ ooooooooooooo During that time my dog, in the space of a few days becomes infested with ticks. God only knows HOW. (Except i'm coming to some sort of conclusion it has to do with turning off the A/c in the house the start of every winter. Last year I had issues with fleas when I turned off the A/c.) And I know it was in the space of a few days because she was groomed days prior. Infested... and i mean infested... over 60 ticks on her. Good lord. So in the process of the doc's, fevers, crying in pain, we go to vets and groomers and I squeeze time into to spray the yard with tick treatment. Get special stuff for the animals. Thought THAT was solved. Huh. We get out of the hosptial... and its the perfect time for a molar in my mouth to go haywire. Seriously friggen haywire. The whole side of my face is throbbing. I start downing excessive amounts of asprin, motrin, tylenol to combat the pain so I can keep going as a mom. Which of course rips up my stomach. Walking around was not becoming my strong point, but wobbling around was. So I tried alternative methods. My mom suggested peroxide which put me in the 9th layer of hell for awhile. Salt water didnt touch the pain, I was downing 2 tabs of penicillian every 4 hours. Bleh. Its finally monday again (and i have a chance to get to the dentist) and my sons neck is not looking so hot. BUT by the time i get him to the doc its draining and well, he's fine for now. Tuesday i fuck with the insurance ppl to get to a dentist. I also admittedly baby myself and nap with my little guy. Today they yank my molar out. Whew. Except as soon as the molar was out I was standing because my little one had been screaming in the waiting room the whole time. They refuse to give me anything other then motrin (which they didnt actually give me, just told me to take). Yeaaaah that'll save my liver and my stomach. So now I am looking at the next couple of days barely being able to open my mouth, taking care of two little ones, AND the fucking ticks are back. Not on my dog this time........ they're in my room. MY ROOM. Last night I was up till 3 am putting borax down in the carpet. Needless to say I'm fucking tired. I cant sleep in my room. Creepy crawlers give me the willies. So while I'm getting rid of the creepy crawlers I might as well yank all the furniture out and finish painting the damn thing. Which I am unsure HOW i am going to do all of this being in so much pain. On top of that i'm just worn out and on top of that i'm pooped. My house is a mess because of everything goin on and that bugs the shit out of me. Arg. And to make things even more..... frustrating.... i think my little one has another issue. WHICH is in a spot nobody on the damn planet has ANY clue about. I'm at my 3rd pedi and i'm still getting bad medical advice. I dont know how i'm even going to move the furniture in my room. How my back will handle that with scoliosis and arthritis and bulging discs, but somethings got to be done because we cant live with ticks. They carry 9 different diseases. God knows where else they are!!!!! Oh... i'll have to tackle that at a later time. I probably have a tick walking on me right now, because I am sitting in my room typing this. But its either vent or implode. And yes yes yes the little one is sleeping otherwise i'd be following behind him wondering about the leaking draining thing on his neck, worrying about it not draining properly and having to take him to a doc so they can hold him down and gush the rest of it out. Which is not only disgusting, but sounds pretty painful. He shreiks like a little girl when i apply warm compresses to it - I can't imagine if they gushed the yucky stuff out. I'm not quite sure how I am going to keep mustering through. I have been mustering through. I mustered. I need a break. Except there isnt one. My mother says I have a perfect mom complex. Pretty much - if I feel I need to do all of the above and if I dont, I'm failing. So yeah, by my standards, I am totally fucking failing and I havent a clue where I am going to get the energy, strength and endurance to keep going AND yank it all back up to where its supposed to be. Does it ever end? Did I just hit a rough patch? Am I just spoiled and this is life? Am I going to be able to breathe soon? Am I going to get back in control of ALL OF THIS CRAP? I just keep thinking that if i take care of problem W and then Y and then Z then the problems are taken care of and things can go back to being normal. Either that or I'm just way over tired and my capacity to deal with shit is at an all time low. Suggestions on helping me keep my sanity? Suggestions on if its a rough patch, I'm just spoiled, or what?

JustDarkness -> RE: Does it ever end? (11/5/2008 11:49:01 AM)
we all have a crap period in life. some a bit longer or more then others it will end...but can't garantee it won't coem back

Irishknight -> RE: Does it ever end? (11/5/2008 11:51:17 AM)
Sanity is overrated. Everyone hits these patches once in a while. Keep fighting and you'll get through it. I won't lie and tell you it won't suck. It will pass however. It always seems to.

Musicmystery -> RE: Does it ever end? (11/5/2008 11:51:17 AM)
I once heard an interview where unexpectedly it came out that the interviewee had lost his wife to cancer in the past year. The interviewer immediately said, "Oh, I'm so sorry," the interviewee responded, "Thanks, it's OK," and then added this comment I've never forgotten: "The trick is to not ask why this is happening to you. It isn't happening to you. It happens to everybody."

DesFIP -> RE: Does it ever end? (11/5/2008 12:03:35 PM)
Three months ago you weren't dealing with all of this at once, so try to keep a perspective and realize that three months from now you won't be dealing with it either. But I admit it's really hard to keep a balance while dealing with it all.

DisenchantedLife -> RE: Does it ever end? (11/5/2008 1:21:55 PM)
Anyone have any good ideas for pest control? What the hell can i do to get rid of these ticks? Get something at home depot? Pest company? blhaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa and its good to know its not that i'm spoiled = )

Lucylastic -> RE: Does it ever end? (11/5/2008 4:15:11 PM)
I dunno if you are spoiled, its not my call to judge you, I too have 3 UM and have been in similar situations more than once over the years. Cant help with the ticks, beyond asking the vet what they suggest. Only do what you can, the UMs are important, you are important and anyone else in the house is. The state of the house may get to you, but it will still be there when you feel better, as long as you can get the sickness gone, the UMs better and look after yourself, sleeping when they do, keeping hydrated and fed, ..... everything else will and can wait. I tried too hard this year, I got pneumonia, was hell on earth for a while, and because I did too much too soon, Im back to a chest infection from hell added with a sinus infection from hell, you have my sympathies and a warm hug to let you know you will get thru it, just look after yourself, the sickly ones and hold onto the fact that it will pass. Good luck and feel better soon Lucy

stella41b -> RE: Does it ever end? (11/5/2008 4:33:03 PM)
But you are alive!! Yes, that's right, breathe in, breathe out, you've been doing it all the time, and you're getting that right, aren't you? You have a family, you have a computer, you even have an Internet connection, it's not all bad you know. You're also getting through this, and you know, it's better to be a survivor than a victim. Whenever you see a negative look for a positive, even if it's something small, banal, trivial, it's still positive. My grandmother always said 'Go ye and get Mrs Broon's duig because we've got a moose in the hoose.' She was a Glaswegian and terribly afraid of mice, but nobody had any cats but Mrs Brown had a little dog, not sure of the breed because it looked like a mop on four legs but it was good at catching mice. In fact I'm sure if this dog had a profile on CM it would be pretending to be a cat. But anyway my grandmother had a saying. Don't worry either way. If you can do something about something then do it and don't worry. If you can't do something about something then do nothing and don't worry. Either way there's no need to worry. I'm sorry that you're ill and hope that you get well soon. The only thing I can suggest for the ticks is some Engelbert Humperdinck music. You see it wasn't always the dog which got rid of the mice, I'm sure when my grandmother played her Engelbert Humperdinck records the mice disappeared. I've seen flies disappear and even birds disappear from the trees outside, so it might also work for ticks. Just a suggestion. Edited due to a blonde moment.

Kirata -> RE: Does it ever end? (11/5/2008 4:41:30 PM)
quote: ORIGINAL: stella41b But you are alive!! Life by itself ain't what it's cracked up to be. But a hug now and then helps. K.

stella41b -> RE: Does it ever end? (11/5/2008 5:17:55 PM)
quote: ORIGINAL: Kirata quote: ORIGINAL: stella41b But you are alive!! Life by itself ain't what it's cracked up to be. But a hug now and then helps. K. Agreed.

DisenchantedLife -> RE: Does it ever end? (11/5/2008 5:47:32 PM)
I knew venting here was a productive thing to do! Perspective perspective. We are relatively healthy, have all limbs, beating hearts, food, shelter, water, etc. Of course if my UM has mrsa things change. I do try and find some positive. Atleast its not fleas! Fleas bite you a million times and you can barely ever feel them walking on you, but it always feels like they are. Atleast with the ticks i can actually catch them. More positives. My stomach doesnt hurt right now, my extracted tooth doesnt hurt, and i'm having the house bombed tomorrow. Fleabusters is coming and yes i know..... fleaaaaaaaaaaa... but they do ticks too. My UM's neck is getting better - which hopefully means its getting better? It looks better. No fever, not the size of a golf ball and he only is upset when i have to take care of it. I'm glad to have that tooth out of my mouth. Root canal gone bad. I had a hole eating away at the top of the cavity that was filled and under the cavity... or something. Oooooooooo and I called a friend who likes to clean and they'll come out for a day and help me get this place right. YES! She cleans, like I clean. My dog is apparently a tick magnet and so are my cats. Better them then us! So they will have a nice warm bed tonight. he he hehe hehhe Now - just some sleep, getting rid of this damn thing in my chest, getting my um better and things will be well on the way to fixing everything else. Thank you all for your responses. I feel TONS better. I really really appreciate the perspective.

ThatDaveGuy69 -> RE: Does it ever end? (11/5/2008 6:35:20 PM)
Someone I know and respect once told me: You never get rid of your problems - you just trade them for different ones. Ain't I just little Mr Sunshine... :D BTW: I've now hauled by backside out of bed at 5:30am for 2 days in a row so I could get to work on time! :) ~Dave

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