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SavageFaerie -> RE: Singles Only! (8/28/2008 4:44:15 AM)
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I have been single for 9-10 year now I did this by choice. Mental insability for me made this choice. I was in a very caring relationship and was loved to the point of distraction. While he could have accepted even 5 % from me in the relationship, it was at the point where was totally dependant on him, I did love him, but wasnt in love. If you can undersand that and hurt him deeply when I broke it off. I came to the conclusion that if my paticipation of a relations was heavly light now being able to give and equal effort in the relationship that I needed to re think a partner relationship. A uneven emotional relationship leads to disaster. So I took the not until I feel I can contribute more on a equal basis I had no right to drag someone into one of a already instable point.
Due to my circumstaces I havent lived alone but been the gypsy and lived with family or the very closest off friends.
Of course there have now and then been friends with benifits. It was pointedly just that.
Do I get lonley, of course, do I miss daily interation, yes, but in the long run I do it not as much for me, but primirly for an equaly satisify healthy relationship.
I have most definetely got used to it and sometimes enjoy the fact that there isnt that chance of a possible loud sleeper and my remote is mostly been all my own. LOL just a perk.
Holidays to me are a perk, I am not a fan of holidays and generally avoid them. Most especially the winter holidays seasons as SAD is in full swing. I have no desire to participate the holidays with others.
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