porcelain26
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nhite, I have the EXACT same problem. What my Owner and I share, I am unable to define. I talked with Him about this recently, terrified that He would take what I was saying wrong, but after ten years, I know enough to know that He's fantastic at sifting through my bullshit to find the truth. When I was with Him before (He and I were apart for several years), I absolutely fell in love with Him and that's not something I'll ever deny, and to a certain extent, that is some of what I still feel - I couldn't trust Him the way I do without that sort of deep, emotional connection. But it's not the same thing as love; love isn't the right word for it....It's not strong enough *grins* I have finally come to the conclusion that what He and I have is simply very, very rare. It's a kind of connection that few people ever get to truely experience, and I'm simply grateful that I've had the opportunity. The nature of my relationship with Him is relevant only to ourselves, and as long as He understands it, I guess I don't need to define it to anyone (not even myself). However, for the sake of trying to help *grins* Master simply calls it "Our Secret".
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