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DarkSteven -> RE: Multiplicity (7/4/2008 3:24:55 AM)
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I need to chime in on this, because I know a multiple, as well as an almost-multiple.
All multiples are created in the same way. When a child is given more abuse than they can take, a new personality is formed to take the abuse and leave the core personality unaware. Note that the non-sharing of awareness is key.
I met michaela online. She was looking for a disciplinarian when her self-destructive urges were getting out of control when her "littles" (her term for her youg child alters) were feeling hurt when she felt rejected by a therapist. The littles were making her cut herself, and do unsafe acts such as walking the unsafe parts of Denver at 2 AM. I decided to try being her disciplinarian, being intrigued by the challenge and also somewhat curious about MPD, having read both Sybil and When Rabbit Howls.
Due to her upbringing, she was shocked to find that discipline can be done in a caring, nonabusive way.
Initially, I disciplined whichever personality had been "out" when an infraction occurred. I gave that up soon because sorting through them was sometimes difficult, and because the alter present when I began discipline, was frequently not the one present when the real punishment began. Also, there were dozens of bad personalities - after I had punished one, another would take over. Eventually, I ended up simply holding the core personality, michaela, responsible for keeping the destructive alters in check. That worked far better.
There were some real challenges. One was that so many things would trigger her into abuse memories, and cause her panic. Baring her bottom for a spanking did that at times, so I spanked her over panties. Also, when I bought her a meal, that would sometimes be a trigger because as a child, she would be raped afterwards as "payment" for the "treat" of eating out. I never took her to synagogue because she had been abused in Satanic rituals and I figured a solemn religious service done in a foreign language would trigger her.
Most of her alters were not named. Some that were:
michaela - the main personality. Professional-looking, and mature-seeming.
Sarah - a defiant child who took pain.
Lauren - a motherly type who soothed the traumatized littles and liked domestic duties.
Melina - a defiant, protective teen who kept threatening influences away from the core personality.
Lydia - a delightful five year old who liked to talk.
Marcy - an alter that emerged before rape, whose job was to get it over with. A child's clumsy attempt to be a seductress.
"work Michaela" - an alter that lived for work. She was always focused on her tasks and how best to get them done, and refused to recognize the existence of the other alters. No sense of humor and once she emerged, I couldn't figure out how to get her to step aside and let the other alters come out.
There were others without names, such as one that was a living primal yell. She would destroy things and was especially rough on cell phones. michaela once satisfied her destructive bent by having her stomp cockroaches.
The almost-multiple is cortney. She would switch between "states", which are like personalities BUT with the critical difference that they shared full consciousness. She once did switch and said something critical that she had no recollection of doing, but aside from that has no record of ever switching.
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