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Owner4SexSlave -> Exploring new frontiers within (6/7/2008 5:44:40 PM)
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Today, I had something rather interesting happen to me. I actually responded to somebody's profile that perhaps a few monthes ago, I would not have.
I find today, me eating my own words to a degree regarding the type of BDSM relationship I am or am not willing to engage in. I read the profile, there was something almost spiritual about it. Sure, it had the typical use, abuse and sexual aspects of it.
I found myself outside on the back deck smoking a cigerettee, trying to find reasonable objections, was coming up short of honest reasons why. I explored things in thought, then the realization of having a vision. Knowing how people grow, change, and are shaped by their own experiences in BDSM as time passes. I realized that the words I were reading on the profile are from a "here and today" point of view. That these would change in time, along with new understandings and human growth.
At times we human beings can be blind to things. Not being able to see a tree in a forest and such. I wish I could say honestly that I digressed, but my mind has become open to new possible things.
My views and perspectives on almost "one wayisms" in my own mindset, are based a lot in my own experiences so far. Certain schools and lines of thoughts. Needless to say, I tend to skip past profiles with anything that conflicts with these POVs I have personally. I found myself today, going outside of my own box of experiences. Exploring a New Frontier of sorts, a whole different manner and way of doing things. I discovered something amazing, that I could in fact do something a little different, without it changing my core personality or base of who and what I am.
At least, I have discovered something new that I'm willing to give a stab at.
It's not my intentions to get into specifics here. Just that it's interesting, how interacting with so many people on a website like this, tends to open up mindset. At first bumping into POVs that are in contradiction. Then stopping to ask questions or hear stories. Slowly seeing things in a different light. Then one day, the realization that the only thing holding you back, is your past experiences, social conditioning and blah blah blah.
It's nice to be able to get POV, and communicate with people all around the world, and not just within a 60 mile radius of where you live. Dare I say it, people are often faced with the over norm and established morals of the local BDSM communities. The so called group or social acceptable "norms".
I don't know how many people have somewhat grown just being part of an Online Community, how many New frontiers within they have got to explore as the result of it. For me this site has been a bit of tool in rediscovering things about myself or discovering new level and things inside. My ReEntry back into "the lifestyle" has been somewhat confusing and not as easy as I thought it would be. I've been feeling the heat while I burn through the atmosphere.
I'm know I'm a bit weird, odd and strange... a freak of sorts amoung other freaks.
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