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BlackPhx -> RE: Masochistic reset button (6/5/2008 5:21:33 AM)
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I do know what you mean though I don't call it a reset..I call it Rez, because once I am in that state, even the most head blind person resonates with me and can become cruel towards me. I become enourmously accident prone and have broken things (toes mostly), pulled hot pans from the oven without mitts burning the palms of my hands, burnt myself other ways and ripped toenails up from their beds accidently. It drove a Sadist I knew into his own form of Rez when he and his Slave delivered a wardrobe they no longer wanted to me. By the time he got back on the road he was bouncing off the doors of the car and was halfway home before he realized what it was. He turned around, came back, grabbed me, shoved me in the car and took me back to their place where he answered both our needs for the rest of the night while his slave looked on wide eyed. She was not a masochist and had never seen him indulge this need in him so deeply. The pain was glorious and it drove him wild when I began to laugh at his efforts (something I have no control over. If it's good, then I am going to laugh, a deep throaty one that challenges you to greater effort) Now for a question back..Do you find yourself going the other way from time to time..the need for pain REDUCING for a period along with the levels of pain you can handle. I find that happens for me when life is too chaotic or when I have subliminated the need into other areas of my life for too long. Than it needs to be kickstarted, but slowly, building back up to previous levels. poenkitten
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