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KatAngel -> Eh, might as well... (4/29/2008 11:06:40 PM)
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Haaallldo, I be's Angel. Kat Angel if Y/you want to be formal. I'm a brand spankin' new Domme (in more senses than one? *Sly look*) - new both to the forums and to the lifestyle in general. A/anyone who looks at My profile will find that I'm a male-to-female, pre-operative, lesbian transsexual, so I'll go ahead and get that part out of the way, even though I hate to think of Myself like that (I'd rather introduce Myself as female than trans, and pass well enough to do so in the real world, but seeing as BDSM depends so much on trust, I'm making an exception here in order to warrant a little bit of it from any friends I make here.) Umm... I think I've pretty much said everything regarding the lifestyle in My profile, so I guess I'll explain here a little about how I came to be a part of it.
A little less than a year ago (somewhere around last June) I was getting very near transition, but still living as a male. It came to the point where I had to tell My friends what I planned to do, or leave them behind; I chose to do the former. One of My friends in particular responded to My coming out with a little coming out of her own: she was pretty deep into BDSM. I had no idea what that meant at the time, and to be quite honest, when she explained it, My first thought was, "Oh, she's one of those people." But, not one to judge, I stayed open minded about it and decided that it would be better for Me to learn as much about it as possible before I came to any conclusions as to what I thought about it. After all, so many P/people jump to similar conclusions about transsexuals, I didn't want to be exactly that which caused so many P/people like Myself so much pain. So, I did some looking... and I still didn't quite get it, and I still wasn't interested in it, but I did understand it enough to embrace it as a part of who My friend was, even if it wasn't remotely who I was.
Jump forward to about two months ago. I started taking Estrogen. Whoo, things changed! The very day I got My first injection, I remember totally unrelated conversations suddenly making Me think of whips and chains, and the desire to dominate and control the P/people I was talking to. I took it as My just being in a particularly kinky mood at the time, but then it happened again. And again. With increasing frequency, it continued to happen. I found it odd, and still do, because I've heard so many P/people talking about how Estrogen made them more passive, and heard of cases where Dommes have become subs after taking it, but that wasn't how it happened for me. It could be because I'm not on anti-androgens to block the testosterone, but I think it has more to do with the fact that I'm simply more comfortable and confident with Myself internally, and so, for the first time ever, am finally able to explore my identity externally, as I relate to other P/people. (Prior to taking Estrogen, I was asexual.)
So, jumping even further forward, we come to about a week ago. I was in an even kinkier mood than usual, and I randomly collared three people in an online roleplaying game. At the time, I didn't know about collaring ceremonies, so I just snapped collars around their necks and started leading them around on leash (as best Y/you can imagine doing in a text-based online game. Yeah, I'm a nerd, get over it.) Once I learned about collaring ceremonies, I did present them with a real collar that I had someone make for me in the game, but anyway... After that, I talked to My friend about it some more, and she and another of O/our friends directed me here, so I decided I'd get involved a little bit. I'm enjoying my experiences thusfar very much, and am eager to learn more. I will say, though, that I'm not much of a forum junkie, so I probably won't post much unless I just happen to see something that particularly interests me, or have a question on My mind to bring up.
So, I guess that's about all Y/you need to know about Me for now. Quite possibly even a little more than Y/you need to know. But whatever, meh, blah, and some other filler words that will make this post seem like it has some sort of closure instead of just ending.
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Damn. It didn't work. *sighs* I guess I'll just have to resort to an old classic...
*poofs away!*
--Angel
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