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ORIGINAL: MistressOfGa

I had a nightmare tonight. I dreamed that I was lying with my sub and I reached down to touch him and there was a woman's hand already there.

I jumped up and sure enough, there was this beautiful woman sitting on the edge of the bed touching pup. I grabbed her hand and told her to get out. She just laughed and continued stroking him. I went postal on her. I beat her to the point of her not being able to stand up.

Cut to morning: I was standing in the kitchen having coffee, when her Dominant walked in. He was kind of pacing a little and I knew he was upset. "About last night.." I began. He turned, with fist clenched and started beating the shit out of me. I could feel and hear my ribs cracking as his fist found their way to them. He beat me to a pulp, all the while yelling "Where is YOUR Dom? Where is YOUR Dom?". I think I lost conscience a couple of times.

When I awoke in my dream, the first thing I noticed was this heaviness that I used to call my head. My face felt like it had been through a cement mixer and my body ached more than I have ever felt in the past.

He was still there, with his pretty sub. I tried to stand, but I couldn't so I just sat down in a chair and stared at him. I couldn't speak, my lips felt like they had just sucked the crap out of a vacuum cleaner. I think my top lip actually touched my nose, that is how swollen it was.

In the mean while, he was still fuming and told me that I couldn't go until my Dominant came to get me. I tried to explain that I didn't have a Dom, that I WAS the Dominant. He laughed and told me that if I were, I would have been able to protect the man in my bed.

At that point I looked around and saw my pup, just lying still with blood all over him. He was dead.

I started to cry out of my swollen eyes and found to my dismay that I couldn't because it stung them so bad. My cries were silent and without tears. I looked at him and said "Do with me what you will, I have no desire to live anymore".

When I woke up, I felt tears on my face and my entire body hurts. I couldn't move and I would have given anything to have a submissive to help me get up and to give me a pain pill.

I didn't remember my dream. I now sit here typing out my dream, in hopes of casting it out of my mind so I can return to bed.

I feel so unbelievably sad....and hopeless right now. You can say I am on the pity pot, but I feel like I am grieving more than feeling sorry for myself.

It has taken me a better part of an hour to type this up. I listen to the same old robotic voice telling me what letters I am typing as I sit in my own darkness.

How I long to see the sun tomorrow.
How I long to dance on the shore.
How I long to feel my pup in my arms. He always made my nightmares and the feelings that come from them, disappear.

There is more to this nightmare that involves my sister, I think I will call her tomorrow and ask how she is feeling.

I will return to my empty bed now. Wish me luck..I have no "Dom" to "Protect me" lol Jesus, I think I read collar me forums to much!

MoGa
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