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sammiebabygirl -> RE: Sir/Ma'am, May I Cum? (1/1/2008 1:58:58 PM)
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ORIGINAL: sexyred1
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ORIGINAL: SeekSubLover365
but it seemed that the OP was talking about making herself NOT cum by forgetting to ask or considering it topping from below, which is all just too much work for me to concentrate on other than just moaning, "Oh my god I have to cum, now!"
See what I mean?
I used to have difficulty asking permission because I was afraid I would ask too soon and not be able or would wait too long and cum before I could ask. I got into the habit of holding back my orgasms because of it.
One time, I was playing with a very strict Dom and it was our first time playing together. I had made the mistake of trying to find my way to his house, rather than calling before leaving to go there. like he had told me to. I figured I would impress him by finding my way, since I am notorious for getting lost.
I got within 2 blocks of his house and was unsure of which way to go, so I called. He was not happy with me and when I did get there, I received a half hour lecture about how I am to do exactly as I am told and never to second guess him. Then he layed out his rules and told me that since it was the first time, he would not punish me, but to bare in mind that his punishments are severe.
Although I did not show it, the thoughts running through my head were, "What do you think the last half hour was?"
Our play consisted of impact play only, but I was incredibly aroused by it and knew I was on the edge of orgasm. I realized that he had never said anything in his rules about having to ask permission to orgasm, but I was terrified at this point, to do something wrong, that I just held it back. I feel that my making the decision to hold back was topping from the bottom, even though he did not know it.
On another occasion, with a different Dom, I forgot to ask, even though I knew I was supposed to and was punished for it. The punishment was something that would ordinarily cause me to safe word immediately, but because it was a punishment, I was not allowed a safe word. That incident taught me to control myself and always ask if I am instructed to.
jen
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