gorgeous1
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Joined: 11/14/2007 Status: offline
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Hi everyone! I've been MIA for a while because my husband took 9 days off of work and we have been spending time working on our new arrangement. My goals when I joined CM were to learn how to be more expressive with what I want, and to get our sex life back to where it had been a few years ago- meaning we were exploring more of a 24/7 relationship as opposed to a D/s sexual dynamic. I am happy to say MISSION ACCOMPLISHED! My husband joined CM a few days ago and goes by Capnspankins, and he has spent some time reading all of my posts and he said he is very surprised that I have been so detailed and expressive. I told him that that was my goal, and asked him if he had noticed I have been more specific with what I like, what I want, and I have also started talking dirty to him, which was reeealllly hard for me to do. Also, a few weeks ago, he asked me if I wanted to take our relationship to the next level and pursue a 24/7 Master/slave relationship, and I had joyfully replied YES! I was pleasantly shocked to find out he had already prepared a long list of rules, goals and expectations in anticipation that I would want to try this. We agreed to spend his vacation focusing on figuring out where to start and which goals to work on first. As any of you know who are already in a 24/7 relationship, it doesn't happen overnight and to dive right in full force trying to achieve that elusive TPE all in one fell swoop is a recipe for disaster and dashed hopes. So...we have started out with the basics. We're working on my re-learning all the basic positions that he likes. That's fun and easy. The hard part has been remembering to address him as Sir and answer his questions properly. I am also having a hard time remembering to not make eye contact. We only do this when we are starting our evening alone (kids in bed, guests gone, etc.). I had never thought I would be able to handle or agree to it, but there are new rules that extend into our mundane vanilla life. I find it frustrating, fun, cute, irritating, and just...arrrrgh! I'm sure hubby is enjoying the fact that I am agreeing to do the following: Fully charge, take and answer my cell phone. I HATE cell phones, and I use maybe 5 minutes a month on my phone. In the past it rarely charged up or taken with me. This is a good rule though, because I am out late at night sometimes and it's stupid to not have a phone in case of emergency, so I know it's for my own good. Another rule is that I have to check the messages on our home answering machine. I don't know why I have such a bad habit of not checking messages...it's not that I'm lazy, I guess I just don't feel like returning phone calls sometimes, so if I don't check the answering machine, I don't have to call these people back. Another rule is that I have to pick up my clothes. I am a germophobe, and cannot stand dirt, but clothes piling up on the dresser doesn't bother me a bit. My husband cannot stand clutter. I suppose together we are a neat and clean powerhouse, which is fabulous, but I just hate hanging up my clothes for some reason! Anyhow, those are the things we're working on, and I already screwed up! I broke all of the above rules, and it wasn't on purpose. I don't intend to be bad, it's just that I forgot. Well, Capnspankins decided to punish me. He made stocks! The other night I got out of the shower and he had the stocks laid out on the bed and I knew I was in for it! He put my head and wrists into the stocks, locked them and had me kneel against the bed and he made me repeat sentences like "I will charge my cell phone" and each syllable got a whack with a rattan cane, and it hurt like hell. A couple of times I squirmed and couldn't hold my position, which is something I have always been able to do. Before he began the punishment, he told me I didn't deserve my collar if I wasn't going to obey the rules. I ended up in tears and when he finished I kissed his feet and told him how sorry I was, because I really was, and he believed me and gave me back my collar and kissed me and held me. It was really intense, but you know what? It felt right. This was a crucial point in our 24/7 journey, and I think if I had felt any resentment for being punished for a "vanilla" rule infraction, I would have reservations with continuing. I got punished, and that was it- after it was over, I didn't feel bad, and neither did he, and I don't intend to make those same mistakes again because I'd rather get spankings because I'm a good girl, than get spankings because I'm bad! Anyhow, I am wondering if any of you who are in a 24/7 had had similar experiences? How did you tackle the first hurdles of working into a 24/7? What were the easiest or most difficult things to do?
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Wife/property of CapnSpankins...and loving every minute of it! Visit my juicy blog http://www.kinkycrafts.info/gorgeous-blog/gblog.php for updates on my slave training!
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