Prinsexx
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How sadistic / Masachistic are you?
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I am a masochist. Even in vanilla relationships I have upped the anti (I realise this now0 until I have been in dangerous situations.
A few major examples remain like flashbilb memories. I was in a relationship with a post-grad student when I was an undergrad. He was from Egypt, there were huge cultural differences btween us and I knew I had his interest when I was explaining about what turned me on. I pushed and pushed his limits until he quite suddenly started to strangle me. There were very deep imprinted bruises around my throat the next day...bue the kissing as he had his hands around my throat was quite literally breathtaking.
In one particular relationship with a Dominant he had me sitting on the last step of my stairs doing time out for something minor which I don't even remember....but he said I could get off the stairs if I paid the pebnalty. It was a series of deep bites, deep as dog bites along the inside of my thighs.
The first time i got fisted it was very painful as I was holding on and not really letting go at the widest point of his hand. That was so painful but even with fisting my tolerance quickly goes up.
Tolerance rises for me quickly with the same partner. This is in itself a warning to me to take a relationship slowly.
The Dom I am wih (yes it's on again) had pushed me beyong a limit which was nothing to do with my masochism. However the crop and caning, even the slippering HE gives is by far more painful in the way I receive it and love it as he is what I would call naturally sadistic and will administer pain randomly well just because it gives him pleasure to do so. There's a difference between this type of sadistic/masochistic relationship as it isn't play, it isn't negotiated before hand and it is entirely private. In such a setting I believe there is more of a sado-masochistic potential. I don't play publicly because of the possibility of meeting clients and students.
I was once punched and hit the floor. It was abroad and I was isol;ated. My head hit a solid wooden parke flooring. This is not adviseable and although in the heat of a moment I always seem to want to go beyond a limit because the greater the pain the greater the turn on, there does come a point when it it not self-serving.
Many many more people I believe have sado or masochistic and or s/m endencies than they talk about.
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