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MissSCD -> I am ok, but what is wrong wit you? (9/24/2007 4:38:09 PM)

Before you all pick up the bowes and arrows, let me explain my situation.  I am reaally looking for folks in this site who are bi-polar.
Oprah had a program on today that really described it perfectly.
She had an actor from "General Hospital" on.  He was in an episode during one of his scenes.   His eyes were rolled up in the back of his head, and he thought he was normal. 
He brought up two very good points.  He said bipolars, including myself, are constantntly in denial of their own mental health.  I  think I am fine, but everyone keeps asking me if I am ok.  Then the next thing he said was it was a genuine clash between God and the Devil.  That is how it feels.  Now I am back in mania.  It will take me three weeks to get through it all, but I will somehow.  In the meantime, I don't want your sympathy, but rather understanding and what you do to help with your disorder. 
My slave has seen this in my eyes, and in my own opinion that is putting him in an abusive relationship.  I am really worried here.
Here comes the flames.
 
Regards, MissSCD



feastie -> RE: I am ok, but what is wrong wit you? (9/24/2007 4:58:40 PM)

Are you abusive to him?



DiurnalVampire -> RE: I am ok, but what is wrong wit you? (9/24/2007 5:02:55 PM)

I am bipolar and unmedicated.  There is nothing abusive about the relationship if you take proper care of yourself.
See a psychologist or psychiatrist. Take medication if necessary assuming your swings are so severe that you are unable to behave normally when you do. I learned to meditate, to recenter myself. I a a rapid cycling bipolar, and yet I learned to control my swings on my own. They still happen, and inside my head I am stil clawing the walls when I am manic, or wanting to curl up and hide when I am depressed. However, I made a decision not to let it get in the way and it doesnt. Unless I tell someone, they have no idea that I have a problem.

Being in a relationship with a bipolar person doesnt automatically create abuse. Being in one with a bipolar person who doesnt take care of the issue and leaves it unchecked, and allows the mood swings to dictate their behaviors without making an effort to change things... might.

It isnt the disorder, its how the person with it handles things.

DV



MissSCD -> RE: I am ok, but what is wrong wit you? (9/24/2007 5:33:25 PM)

No, feastie.  I am not abusive to him.  For him, the more pain the better;  however, I feel I am putting him in an unstable relationship.
DV,  you made a lot of sence.  I am calling the old doc first thing in the am.   This happens a couple of times each year primarily around seasonal changes.    I don't know if that has anything to do with it or not.
It is a journey for sure.
Keep your suggestions coming.

Regards, MissSCD



DiurnalVampire -> RE: I am ok, but what is wrong wit you? (9/24/2007 7:18:18 PM)

If you are noticing it happens seasonally, that might be something completely different that Bipolar disorder. There are other disorders that have to do with seasonal changes and how they effect your body, and even the amount of sunlight you get.  Make sure your doc knows when these things happena nd what precipitates them. Ther eis nthing worse than a misdiagnosis




feastie -> RE: I am ok, but what is wrong wit you? (9/24/2007 7:18:27 PM)

If you feel you're unstable, see your doctor.  You may need a mood stabilizer.



MissSCD -> RE: I am ok, but what is wrong wit you? (9/25/2007 5:06:40 AM)

Believe me.  I take mood stabelizers.  lol I like to refer to bipolar disorder as "The Beast".  
My slave and I talked, and we are fine.  He brought out some points I did not realize also. 
I respect his opinion because of what he did for a living for 30 years.
Something happened at work Saturday that triggered it.   I am going to have to allow myself to make errors and learn from my mistakes.  I have this strange notion that I am perfect.  Go figure!

Regards, MissSCD



desertdancer -> RE: I am ok, but what is wrong wit you? (9/25/2007 5:18:35 AM)

Now see I read the title and had a long list of stuff wrong with me to post, 'cause so much is wrong with me, to much to count !

But since this is a serious posting, I'll say that though I am nto bi-polar, I have worked with a girl who was.  She'd have days where she'd laugh hysterically then be crying later in the day.  She was not being medicated because of her religon. 

The only advise I could offer is don't be to hard on yourself, but try to be honest with yourself, if you feel your moods changing, honestly stop and look at them and assess them....

I wish you very good luck.
~dancer



MissSCD -> RE: I am ok, but what is wrong wit you? (9/25/2007 7:57:06 AM)

Thanks dancer.

I have an apt with my shrink tomorrow at 12:10 pm.   I left a message with the office manager, and they called to check on me.  
They think I need to be seen.  He is a nice person, and has done more for me than anyone; however, this is about moods, and it is very hard to control them. 
Thanks for the input.

Regards, MissSCD



KenDckey -> RE: I am ok, but what is wrong wit you? (9/25/2007 8:32:35 AM)

MissSCD

I am so glad that you are going to get help.   MY son is bipolar (amongst other mental problems)  He would be fine for days and even weeks, then all of a sudden flip.   He initally stared out being mentally abusive to those he loved, then became more and more physically abusive.  When he deserted from the Army and I found out I turned him in and he got the medical care he needed.   He is now medically retired with a small pension and living in a VA facility where he gets care.   He can check himself out at any time and after being homeless (the entire family had to eventually turn their back on him to get him to the bottom so he would get the continued help he needed) for a while, he decided that doing without his meds was not the way to go.

He never realized that he was being abusive.   He felt all his problems were caused by someone else.  With help he enrolled in College and is getting his degree in mental health and is beginning to understand theimpact with the family of his actions.   He is slowly coming back into the family fold.

I wish you the best of luck.   The problem isn't yours, it is a medical condition that can be helped.

Ken



MissSCD -> RE: I am ok, but what is wrong wit you? (9/25/2007 10:01:49 AM)

Ken:

I did  not realize what I was  doing.   I am so sorry about your son's illness.  It is devestating.  It will get you both emotionally and financially.
My mood dropped Friday like someone dropping an egg by accident.  Just like that I went from nice me to I don't know what I am right now.
The good thing is I can work some.   I am going back to work tonight, and my boss can pick me up.  She is awesome. 
Saturday was one of those days where everything went wrong and did.  
Blessings to you and your son.

Regards, MissSCD



KenDckey -> RE: I am ok, but what is wrong wit you? (9/25/2007 3:37:47 PM)

I thank you very much.   Being Bipolar is a struggle for all.   I feel confident taht you wll work it out becasue you recognize the problem and that is 90% of the battle

Ken



MistressKita -> RE: I am ok, but what is wrong wit you? (9/25/2007 3:46:13 PM)

I agree with DiurnalVampire I am bipolar also and have learned my trigger affects and how to turn myself around when having issues and I lead a decent life

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desertdancer -> RE: I am ok, but what is wrong wit you? (9/26/2007 3:47:30 AM)

MissSCD,

I'm so sorry your having a rough time of it.  I do hope it gets better for you soon.  You said in an earlier post that you had an egg drop, when I have an egg that drops I am always thankfull that I didn't drop the whole carton.  

I think that by seeking help such as you are, your looking to hold onto your egg carton and protect those eggs.  It's so easy to drop an egg, then get so upset about the eg that you just throw all the others on the floor, I think it speaks volumes that you are taking steps to not throw your eggs.

I am wishing you all the very best,
Dancer



feastie -> RE: I am ok, but what is wrong wit you? (9/26/2007 4:55:21 AM)

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ORIGINAL: MissSCD

Believe me.  I take mood stabelizers.  lol I like to refer to bipolar disorder as "The Beast".  
My slave and I talked, and we are fine.  He brought out some points I did not realize also. 
I respect his opinion because of what he did for a living for 30 years.
Something happened at work Saturday that triggered it.   I am going to have to allow myself to make errors and learn from my mistakes.  I have this strange notion that I am perfect.  Go figure!

Regards, MissSCD


Then you may need an adjustment in your dosage or even a different medication altogether if you don't feel better soon.  Best of luck to you.



MissSCD -> RE: I am ok, but what is wrong wit you? (9/26/2007 5:55:09 AM)

Dancer:

That one was priceless.  I had an egg drop and be thankful I did not drop the carton.
I go in a few minutes.  He will change my meds around.
They found the missing money in my drawer on Sunday. Guess where it was?  LOL
It was in the drawer!  Who is crazy now?  The manager who counted it screwed up. Hides.

Regards, MissSCD



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