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Prinsexx -> RE: Single bi females in high demand (9/24/2007 4:26:55 PM)
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ORIGINAL: LATEXBABY64 ok what freaking fantasy island are we on now. geeze porn run a muck No, as far as I was aware we aren't on a fantasy island. I might be working out my own process here, as well as having an engaging discussion with some. Just let me say that for many years I was in emotional pain, not the sort of pain anyone wants, truly, trying to adhere to that compartmentalised world of straight versus gay versus bi and dominant versus sub. Suffering fromm anorexia too so as to re-shape my body in an attempt to define according to other people's fetishes. A self still sneered upon in the world and self-denial internalised within my own head in a compartmentalised manner for at least 40 years if i admit it. There were moments of sheer bliss at certain times but only when I knew for sure I was breaking most of the rules that my immediate world had set. OK so I am arcahic and came from a time when the luxuries of internet connectivity was simply not there, when homosexual men cottaged in hidden toilets and then began to die of some invisible illness. There, when men and wome cried because the marriages they had vowed under the eyes of their god had broken because their beloved had fucked another, or been caught wearing the wrong kind of clothes or worse still asphixiated and hung themslves for dead, lost a political career on Hampstead Heath or spent the family heirloom visiting costly houses of domination. Those sound like the dark ages but they are not they are a mere 15 to 20 years ago and some still suffer as a result of that repression as worse as returning from any war zone. I'm happy at last and yet there are still those who hold power over me, who pay my bills, to whom I am beholden, who for reasons of their own hold cold hearted mockery in their hearts for anything slightly off the 100th percentile. I know if I have a choice to live with shame and blame or kink freedom which one I would choose. And yes it does offend me to even sense that sort of criticism and cynicism in the quote above when all this is about is fisting a bitch when I am told to and loving both of them in that dreaded long term longed for loving relationship. Ranting venting half crazed bi switch here and as it's nearly the full harvest moon please foregive if you are offended too........... Yours sincerely Prinsexx Not-on-fantasy-island and wishing you were here.
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