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SeeksOnlyOne -> in memory of my furry friend razor (7/11/2007 4:28:39 PM)
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suddenly last night, he was limping......then we went to bed and he slept by my side as always......i woke up to him struggling and discovered he couldnt move his back legs....i carried him into the living room and loved on him, watching his eyes as he struggled and look at me like whats wrong mom.......i hugged and cried and my son came in and stayed with him while i grabbed a quick shower......we rushed to the vet, hoping against hope, it could be fixed...... sadly, it couldnt be..........we had a long time to sit with him and love him, but the look in his eyes told me it was time......something had gone very wrong neurogically, and there was no cure...... my son and i had as long as we wanted to say goodbye.....then my son left the room sobbing... and i stayed, rubbing razors head and telling him i loved him, as they gave him the shots........he peacefully went limp and i cried more, then spent a few more moments with him before they took him to prepare him for me to bring him home to bury...... my son held him in his lap, the entire way home, tears rolling down his tough, 19 year old face....no words were spoken........ we got him home and laid him on his loveseat for a while, i rubbed his still warm body through the cloth he was wrapped in and cried more...... my son took his body, ever so gently, and took it outside.......i stood at the door, watching, crying, as my baby dug the hole to bury our friend, the one we got when he was just 5 years old......my son cried silently, then as gently as i have ever seen him move. placed our razors body in the hole, sat there for a moment, then covered him with the dirt, using his hands only..... when my son walked up to the door, we hugged and cried and i told him i had never been prouder of him than this moment.....going with me, holding razor through the journey, refusing to lay him in the back seat alone for the journey home...... so now i will sleep alone, for the first time in 20 years......razor became my snuggle buddy when i got divorced 5 years ago, and i cant imagine going to that bed without him. so heres to my best friend of 14 years, razor.....r i p 7/11/07 and to the hope i can find comfort for my self so i may offer some to my brave son, who is for today anyhow, my hero.
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